Why I didn’t work on myself sooner
When I was younger, I didn’t work on myself because I held the believe that I was either whole and worthy, or broken and somehow wrong. This prevented me from doing the necessary work on me with a professional that would heal my mental wounds.
I didn’t see a psychologist because if I did, my ego told me I was broken and weak. So I tried to ignore any pain or negative feelings, deny them and bury them.
It was only when I realised that you can be both worthy and a work in progress that I could do any meaningful work on my mental state. That it’s not an either you’re sick or you’re healthy, but it’s a continuing process of self discovery and self improvement.
It’s possible that you, your job, your relationships, your fitness, your finances, etc etc are good AND can be improved. When we adopt this mindset we can let go of any shame associated around getting help and looking for a better way.
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