Life provides very little guarantees, the probability for success when you come from nothing is very low, because you need a network of people around you to make things happen, now you might have been that person that everyone comes to for support and you feel tired and exhausted because of that, know this you are very lucky to have survived such an experience where you where stretched because now you know what you are capable of and that is the ultimate realization, many don't map out how they life should be because they live under some determination set by others. Free yourself and life will offer you many gifts that will serve you