It’s been a long time since I’ve had a hangover but I had one yesterday. Unfortunately, it wasn’t from a good night of partying, it was from a damn counseling session... with my wife! As much as I love counseling, personal development, coaching, and therapy, wading through uncomfortable issues are never fun. Especially when it's your issues! The conversation wasn’t new. Even the topics we were covering weren’t new. It was having to, once again, look at another way in which my fear, insecurity, and self-worth are running my life and affecting those closest to me. Until a few months ago, I wouldn’t have been able to understand how these shortcomings were influencing virtually every decision I’ve made. I’d argue, most people are not aware of how much fear, insecurity, and self-worth negatively influence their life because they can’t see it. I would consider myself pretty evolved and I couldn’t see it. That’s because they exist deep down in the subconscious and have been there since their early childhood. Recently, I’ve heard from multiple people in multiple different ways, the significance of what we make up about ourselves from ages 0-8. The thing that's been most surprising is, I’ve been running the same emotional program for over 30 years... and it was a child that made the jacked-up program! What I’m getting at is, 95% or our decisions are made by our subconscious, that inner program was created birth to around age 8. I’ve spent my entire adulthood trying to run my life using my intellect, that's the other 5% that’s left to the conscious part of our brain. And no wonder I’ve been baffled as to why I can’t overcome some of the mental and emotional challenges I’ve been dealing with for years. The same one that comes up over and over again. Even though they look different, they’re rooted in the same shiz. As unnatural as it is, I have to spend much more of my time connecting with my innermost self through prayer, meditation, journaling, step work, counseling and any other thing that helps me get out of my head and into my body. I hate even writing this because I’d rather think my way out of everything! Oh yeah, and throw some blame in there, some excuses and some good logical reasons why it’s about circumstances or why it’s someone else’s fault! But maybe that just me who does that, lol. If you have any questions or would like me to cover a topic let me know. Also, if you know someone struggling with drugs, alcohol, anxiety, depression or any other mental health issues, let them know they are not alone. Hollar at your boy!! k.preston.moore@gmail.com
