Welcome back to Mental Snacks with Claiborne Jackson where you will find mindful discussions to assist with healing caused by generational trauma.
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So leave it to facebook memories to truly take you down memory lane. It pulled up a memory from 14 years ago when i was young and i wont say dumb but young and not to wise. I was 36 and thought i had figured out the world. I thought i had everything under control and was really doing it big. Truth i was doing it big with weight and issues as you can see in the picture if you are watching on Spotify but if not you can see the picture on social media under mental snacks.
36/50.
So At age 36 it was all about how much you could bench and how big you could get. During that time I was probably close to 300 pounds ,I was wearing xxxl shirts and was in the 500 club on the bench. Now if you asked me i was super healthy But in reality my health was terrible mentally and physically. But I thought it was on point 😬. So At this point I'm my life I was training to survive not thrive.. intimidate and terminate . Get as big and strong as possible for intimidation purposes and if all else fails be strong enough to terminate the threat
During that time my big brother had told me to be carful on how swoll i got because if folks are to scared of you they wont fight you they will shoot you. Repercussions from being to big. Fortunately i was never shot but the thought stayed on my mind .
But a few years later i did end up in the hospital suffering from chest pain and blood pressure issues caused by stress ,weight and other life issues. Dr told me that me being in survival mode was actually killing me. So ruffly around 14 years back i started towards a life change and termed my 24 hour membership and joined a mixed martial arts gym called Undisputed. Which is a whole other podcast in itself . So to see this facebook picture pop up it really took me back in a good emotional way.
So Now currently at Age 50 weighing around 212 lbs and dropping, xl shirts (can wear a large but I still like some room) no longer concerned with being super swoll and heck I'm not even in the bench club anymore. Health is great mentally and physically.. now I'm training to thrive and prolong my life. Motivate and elevate others . No longer in survival mode. You can tell by the smile on my face at 3am in the gym lol.( picture posted on social media or if you are watching the the podcast” 4
And yep same exact location and same spot frm 14 years ago ya dig. Funny thing is I signed up and came back a few months ago. The universe is funny like that.
Song credit
Music: Mornings
Musician: Jeff Kaale
