THEY LAUGHED AT ME
75 degrees out
Just a couple clouds in the sky
I’m in Middle school
Walking into a classroom
A group of girls bunched up In one corner
I walk into the room
They look at me
Start laughing at me
Cause they heard I had a crush on a “pretty girl”
They thought it was funny enough to tell everyone else about
My face turned red
I was SOO embarrassed
I relived this feeling almost daily Walking in that room
I would go home and just wonder why this happened to me
Why couldn’t I just be like the other guys
Why couldn’t I have a six pack
Why couldn’t girls just be attracted to me
Why did I have to sit down with rolls on my stomach everyday
Why did I have to wear baggy T-shirts all the time
Why did I have to think about every single step I took and if it would make me look fat or not
Why did I have to look in the mirror and look at my man boobs
Some guys were fast
Some guys were strong
Some guys were athletic
And I felt like I had nothing
Why ME
Its because I COULD HANDLE IT !! It’s my future version of myself NEEDED THAT TO HAPPEN!
It built me
It made me NEVER wanna go back to that feeling ever again
Fast forward to college
Fitness is now my passion
It changed me forever
I made my Instagram to start tracking my progress
But now I had people laughing at me for making a fitness page
So I stopped posting on it
I stopped because I didn’t wanna be different
It was then I realized THEY ARE GOING TO LAUGH NO MATTER WHAT
They are going to judge no matter where your at
If you walk on water
They’ll say it’s cause you can’t swim
SO STOP FOCUSING ON THE NEEDS AND OPINIONS OF OTHERS
So I realized I Needed to decide what made me happy
My entire fucking life I’ve been just trying to please everyone except myself
If your in a similar position right now
DO WHAT YOU TRULY ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT
Not what your friends think is cool, not what you parents think you should do, that shit will hinder you from being the absolute best version of yourself
Time to start making yourself a priority fam
