Why I Quit Smoking Weed
I remember any time a friend wanted to hangout it involved smoking weed
Any time I would be stressed out from a long day smoking weed
Before class sometimes smoke weed
It was beginning to silently consume my life
Started off just a couple times over the weekend to an every single night occurrence
To Multiple times a day
All to get a sense of temporary happiness, “stress relief”
because I was again trying to find anyway to escape reality for that one second
But I always said “its no big deal” everyone else I doing it….so who cares
“If they can get high and do work So Can I”
I was trying ti just escape the actual reality in front of me instead of the one I should’ve been working on creating
And I started to notice that truly it was taking away from my productivity, my drive, my focus to want more and be more for myself
It made me lazier, complacent, and not nearly as sharp as I knew I should be
And to add to it, every time I would smoke I would binge eat everything in sight
Which would then make me feel guilt and shame the next day, so I would cover up that shame and guilt with smoking more
This Caused me to feel anxious all day and then the cure of course was to smoke
One day I finally said
“What the fuck Ammi Doing”
Why ammi giving into something thats making me less of who I really am
Making me feel like I deserve less out of my life
Something that makes me feel anxious and unconfident when I go into any life situation
Enough was Enough
I know Im better than that and I was justifying my actions even though I know it didn’t align with who I wanted to become
So If your caught in this trap Men of smoking Weed, that tells me that theres something your avoiding,
Whether its avoiding that tough conversation, avoiding looking in the mirror, whatever it might be
You don’t need it and it might be preventing you from stepping into your true fucking power
