I was suffering in silence…
I used to watch porn twice daily
After a long day of school, work, training
If I felt stressed and needed to take my mind off of things
My end of the night guilty pleasure was watching porn
It became so conditioned in my mind at the end of the night after doing it for years
I just did it because it was normal…
But behind closed doors I was suffering
This would be the ONLY thing I looked forward to during the day
That sense of relief…
But I now started to rely on happiness from staged sex
I would even have trouble getting an erection when it was time to actually have sex cause I was so used to doing it myself
I was addicted like a drug….
After watching it it lead me to doing things that kept me comfortable, that kept me from stepping into my power
Every single time I did it it killed my confidence
it made me wanna hide away and keep to myself, since I felt this sense of shame and guilt
One day I finally said enough was enough
This will NOT control my life, this will not control the way I feel, this WILL not keep a handle of the WHO fuck I’m meant to be
It Would keep me from wanting to create a Real reality with a real woman, because I was so addicted to the fake sensations
Now I’ve been free from porn for over 8 months and I still have urges to go back
But I remember God knows I’m better than that
I already know what’s on the other end of it, 1 night turns into 2,3,4,5…
If your battling with this your normal..and it’s normal to have urges to go back
But know I’m right there with you on this journey and we’re only getting stronger, better, and integral as men
Don’t fall for the trap society has deemed as “normal”, let’s level up and become SAVAGES for the people around us gentlemen
Much love,
- Coach Nasser
