I never know what episode this is. This was recorded on January 4th 2021. Becoming conscious and living as an awakened being will take you through giant periods of transitions that do not go quickly. It is a slow and in the beginning torturous process. After a while it is a joyous process but the first few times you go through it it is extremely challenging and it is a time when very often people turn around they do a u-turn and go back to their old dysfunctional choices because the new is so scary. Finding ways to get through the terror is a work of art, the art of self-care
