This episode starts of strong and upbeat with shoutouts to James' sister, Melissa, and a big thank you to everyone. James learned while editing that Nespresso and Nescafe are not the same thing...and though he says Nescafe repeatedly, he meant Nespresso...and shouldn't record first thing in the morning as a rule. Then the musings take a more somber turn up the Boulder turnpike as James goes on about how the recent shooting event there got under his skin quite a lot.
A song by the band Apathy (Colorado) is included in this episode, with permission, and is also the namesake of this episode's title. Hug your people if you are able. Take care of yourselves, and each other.
"Dying Eyes
And they died. The look in their eyes. Unconscious surprise. Unknown terror. It’s concrete in their eyes. They were taken – death’s form in children. What were they thinking? Not a Goddamn thing, they were gravely mistaken. Mistaken. Fucking cowards. There are no words to describe the void that you left inside. Your lives in vain, your mind’s – insane. What made you think you had the fucking right, what the fuck? You had no fucking right. Taken. Unliving. Past forgiving. A place on Earth that we can call Hell, but we’re lucky enough to call it home. Fucking pussies. Two minds so weak. What made them think they’d accomplish a thing? I’m sorry to the victims and their families. We all share in your grief. Weak-minded motherfuckers. How could this be? This can’t be happening to me. My mind’s now free. Eternal serenity. Fucking freaks. My mouth can’t scream. I can’t let these fucks take my life from me. But if I can hold on I might make it to see another day. Crouched on the floor. Horrors outside the door. I am numb to everything, except complete fear. I turned to God that day. I looked for His help that day in hopes that I could go away. Just go away, and see my family. But some died. A whole world cried. They lost their precious lives for nothing. What’s so wrong that our young think they have to kill to be heard at all? Fucking why, have innocent died? We’re truly sorry. Respect to you. And our love to you, and we hope that you make it through. But fuck those two that fucking put you through insane shit that you should have never had to go through. Weak-minded motherfuckers."
