There are only 2 people that you really need to make proud of you.
These 2 things are probably playing a key role in draining the energy and are craving.
In the zone targets
Instead of “why did this happen?” maybe it’s “why hasn’t this happened more often?”
Using tools like the exaggeration tool to shift mood/energy, rather than turning to food or alcohol, gives your brain what it was actually asking for.
Staring each day at zero.