Taken from her YouTube channel, in this episode, Toni shares how play and solitude were some of her essential companions that helped build the emotional resilience necessary to weather life as a missionary. An intense achiever by nature, Toni lost all ability to "shine" when she moved to Uruguay, South America with her family in 1997. "A Bird at Play" and "Daybreak", poems taken from her first book Back to Joy, express how she pressed through her intensity to play and solitude and found a comfort and a peace so much bigger than herself.