If you are a watch wearer and prefer an analogue watch, you may have luminous numerals or hands. When it's bright, you can't see if the hands or numerals are really luminous, but only when it's dark. In daylight, these chemical substances that have been applied to the hands and indices become charged in most cases, so that this glow becomes visible when there is no light. I appreciate it very much when I can read the time at night or otherwise in the dark. However, the legibility of the time depends on how long the luminous material has been exposed to light or how strong the light source was in which the material was able to charge up. This determines the radiant power. It's the same with us humans: we radiate in dark times what we expose ourselves to in quiet times, reflect what we have previously opened ourselves to. What is that with you?
I wish you an extraordinary day!