šø So right, so true, so me ā so blended! Know, donāt tell.
š What I'd like to do differently:
I stumbled into the call, unsettled. A part chastising for time wasted, I'm supposed to be preparing for a call, not helping a beeā¦
Then Bee told me she was a beekeeper, and something about sweetness and honey. I short-circuited, remembering a dream I had last night. Christmas w my family of origin. They gave me a tiny vial of the most exotic honey. Rare and magnificent and almost sacred, and it was mine. I tasted a drop: "like apricot and marshmallow and roasted peanuts and sour candy!" And I passed it around for all to try. It was all so nice! So nice that they knew me well enough to choose it for me, and that feeling I had of just wanting to give it right back. We all laughed and talked about how exquisite it wasā¦
I dream about honey a lot, and I dream about my family a lot. But this one was so sweet it woke me up.
During our call I suddenly realized the meaning of my dream. The joy and certainty of this gift. Certainty meaning: I knew how special it was (more than they did) I was the connoisseur, exploring and describing the intricacies. But everyone could enjoy it. And a drop was all anyone needed.
At the top of the call I picked the target, I didnāt ask Bee to decide. I had parts saying āMistake! How will you explain this? Why?ā and again at the end, as I got into teaching mode, parts said āagainst the rules! Stop teaching, stay curiousā. And I responded āIt feels right, and we donāt have to explain it to anyone.ā
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