I think the loneliness is what really gets to me. I feel like I’m a part of others journeys but there’s no one that’s a part of mine. I’ve also been checking myself a lot when I ask for help. I don’t like the feeling of being used and I’d hate to make anyone feel like that’s what I’m doing to them. This makes me isolate myself from everyone. But I think that’s a good thing. I need someone to work just as hard for me as I would for them and honestly I’m at the point where I just need to do it myself. I need to learn to go just as hard for myself as I do for others. Just gonna either stop answering my phone or start telling a lot of people no.
