MY SUICIDE EXPERIENCE CAUSED ME TO SEE SELF HARM AS ANY OTHER ADDICTION OR COMFORT THAT ONE HOPES TO CURE OR SELF MEDICATE TOWARDS THAT END. UNFORTUNATELY, MY THINKING WAS SO ABSOLUTE THAT IT ENSURED NO ROOM FOR ACKNOWLEDGING THE GREIF AND ABSENCE THAT I WOULD LEAVE BEHIND.
THEREFORE, TODAY I SAY, RESOLUTELY, THAT I WILL NOT ABANDON MY MISSION —NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES IT MAY FAIL. I WILL STOP THINKING THAT LIFE OWES ME PROTECTION FROM RACISM, SEXISM, IMPOVERISHMENT AND FALSE ENTITLEMENT TO ANYTHING THAT WOULD GUARANTEE THE GOOD LIFE WITHOUT WORKS —AND EVEN STILL, SOMETIMES WORKS WILL NOT BE GOOD ENOUGH.
HOWEVER, I CAN CREATE MY OWN UNIVERSE AND MY IMAGINATION PROMISES ME EVERYTHING BUT DEATH! I PRAY!
HOW DO YOU PERCEIVE THOSE THAT ARE SUFFERING FROM PERMANENT GRIEF AND HOW DO YOU HAVE A DISCUSSION OF SUCH LOSS THAT WOULD BE HEALTHY AND EMPOWERING?
NO ONE REALLY KNOWS…
INSTEAD, WE GAVE A DISCUSSION ON THE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRAIN OF LIFE AS SOCIAL HUMAN BEINGS AND THE STRAIN CAUSED BY NOT KNOWING A PERSON’S STRUGGLE OR MOTIVES. ALTHOUGH THERE ARE PRE-EXISTING CONDITIONS THAT ARE UNBEARABLE TO THE INDIVIDUAL, THE NEED TO BE IMPACTFUL REQUIRES AN ELEMENT OF SURPRISE AND SHOCK VALUE THAT IS MORE CONSISTENT WITH IMPULSE RATHER THAN FORETHOUGHT.
SUICIDE IS A SOCIALLY DERIVED IMPULSE?
As cognitive dissonance, strain is a psychological frustration or even suffering that one has to find a solution to reduce or do away with. A very serious and strong strain may turn into a mental disorder. The extreme solution for an unresolved strain may be suicide.
