Original titles: "Closure Already Happened. Move On." | "The One Where I Rant To Myself" | "FINDING MY VOICE"
Trying to find closure, a year-and-a-half after removing my father from my life. Discussing family karma. An abandoned person feeling guilty about abandoning their dad. Basically me convincing myself it's okay to have boundaries.
I am SO BITTER in this one, oh my goodness! Honestly, the anger was a little overwhelming for me to listen back to, but I am so thankful to past me for feeling the things that needed to be felt.
In retrospect, I see that I felt so guilty because I was holding onto the idea of him being a villain, when really he was just a hurt and afraid child, doing the best that he could with the circumstances of his life. Writing this in April 2022, I've learned that the more understanding and compassion I can hold for him, the more at peace I am with everything. But of course, to get the energy flowing in the first place, anger needed to be felt, so I don't regret any of this process.
