So Tony Robbins said, need a vision that has the power to pull you when my vision is cordoned California for six months. Coming back, having the ecpr people come here, train people, somebody wants to become a trainer, somebody becomes a trainer. And then things go from there. I guess in saying that, it shows me that really, I just don't want people to be pathologized. I don't want people to be told they have a mental illness in the first place. I was told after two days in the psych ward. And so that is my vision is d pathologize. ation of extreme states. And beyond that seeing the gifts in those extreme states. And I've already talked about that. And I don't want to start repeating myself too much. But there are gifts. And there there is healing that happens and strong reasons why was number two for Tony Robbins and I want to be off meds so then I can keep my kidneys and my thyroid in good shape. Because I'll need them for those extra 25 years that I want to live, that will likely be taken away from me if I remain in this paradigm. And it's not just having those 25 years back. But what am I going to do with those 25 years, I think that might be the most important part is that I have to have good enough reasons to have those 25 years back. So if I just come off meds for my own little 25 years, that's not very powerful. But if I have that goal in order to help other people will get their 25 years back, then that's a lot more powerful than just for my own personal wellness. And he also talked about raise your standards? Well, I have high standards and that I don't want to be on medication. And so when he talks about needing to stay consistent with who we think we are, well, I think bipolar actually gives us access to different dimensions of ourselves to experiment. Well, is this who I am, is this who I am. Do I want to be more like this. And I think that's for me where embodied mania comes in is there could have been a lot of experience ones had in mania and psychosis that one would not want to embody. And so by having access to more of the spectrum, one can actually choose different ways of being after the fact through embodied practice versus always assuming one is this consistent entity that one is trying to stay consistent with. And he said joy comes when we're spontaneous. So that's definitely true of mania being super spontaneous, is being super joyful. So synchronicities, spontaneity, joy. I feel those are part of embodied mania. And so that's what Tony Robbins said is, the strongest force in the human personality is to stay consistent with how we define ourselves. I defined myself as somebody who's not on medication, who's very healthy. I would like to help bring the gift of wellness to people. First, I have to create it myself. I'm optimistic that I can get off medication or watch another talk online and the guy said invest in your own brain and he was talking about education and reading and stuff but I think too, coming off medication is investing in my own brain. Part of my wellness company actually the beginning part it's actually investing in myself and experimenting with myself. I remember years ago, I had a chronic fatigue like syndrome thing going on. And when I finally was able to heal myself of it through diet and and things like that I told myself I really wanted to help other people have really good health. But then I didn't do that and then it was too late and then I had this mental health condition. So I feel like by doing these videos when I do come off medication, at least all have already created something that might be helpful. And I don't know if it will be or not. I have no idea but the videos I was doing For sort of like a big reframe, and big context creation. And I feel already that even in my last couple of weeks of struggle that some of that context has helped me. It sort of feels like it arises in consciousness when, when I'm going through something, and that's that story, those words, in my
