with the present moment which is not the present moment so we're always interpreting the present in terms of the past and in that way we're not actually learning and there's nothing new and so things feel meaningless and not beautiful we adapt a thing so something that's beautiful right now if I do that every day it's not going to be feeling the same way so we kind of do the opposite with our ego memories we have these things and we're always feeling the same way because we're recognizing the same pattern because we allowed it to get stuck there of the billions and trillions of patterns we've experienced in our life until now we let if you get stuck in our body and on our inner light body mind screen and then we're always reacting and seeing that those bits are what are making the rest of our life salient it's being made salient as this meaningless because we've adapted to seeing the same thing all the time and has gotten really boring and it's it's habit it's habitual and it's important to make certain things have it like walking driving things like that but if we're making our psychological bits habit besides actual physical skills then we're actually polluting our inner dimension and it's no longer the rich experience that we came here with so again the ego is like a hallucination it's like a delusion we're being diluted and polluted by our past and trying to change our thoughts is sort of like trying to hallucinate a better ego and that can pacify us for a while but it's not that sustainable so I believe manic consciousness makes us an instrument of the universe instead of an instrument playing the old songs of the ego and the images inside our head and passed off which is like being an old record so most people in reality are walking around like they're old records and they're keeping the old alive and then when that mind screen gets clearer in the inner light body everything filters through us and funnels through us and passes through us clean and that means we're actually playing and acting and being animated by the energy of the universe and not like a record would be or like one of those old music boxes if there was no little little pieces of metal there there would be no music so in that way the ego is like a music box with all this music but it's not in tune so and then the universe is like music box but it's the tune of the universe so as it turns around the song that's being played is in tune whereas the ego is like a music box that the thing was just created kind of randomly or it was just the same note over and over again leading ding ding ding just the same note and it gets really boring and nobody would want to listen to it so the person who's listening to it get really bored again I feel like the mines green the inner light body hits becomes a dust filter when once one piece of dust accumulates it's going to keep accumulating on that point so that's going to be like a sore spot for people and like a trigger to play the old record and act out old past programming one can see ones tendency to want to react and not react and that starts to stop the accumulation and maybe what gets pretty accumulation is whatever it is that one acts with in ennis instead of that so it almost repattern so by doing one gesture all the time is going to make my muscles attuned and my brain in tune to that but if I start doing a different gesture it's going to weaken that other circuit of that one that I was always doing as a reaction now if instead doing that one reaction now I have a choice of doing a hundred different things or whatever it is required in the moment now I've gone from having sort of that scar tissue in that aspect of myself to not having it because I'm not always reinforcing that so our past programming tends to dictate our reactions yet we think we have choice over the way we act I feel like when the mine screen inner light body interface interface is clear the universe just passes through us and we pass through
