When I was trying to go back to sleep, I was experiencing that kind of remote viewing thing. And usually that only happens at night when I'm trying to fall asleep the first time, but not in the morning, when I'm kind of waking up and trying to go back to sleep. So could be a sign that my brain is starting to go into altered states ish. And I felt a little bit of like, I wouldn't say they're like suicidal thoughts, but just a little bit, kind of, I think feeling the pressure of getting out of here might be good to go sooner rather than later, but two more weeks, and then I'm out of here. And I was also feeling a bit of weirdness around not talking to certain people. But usually when I leave, I'm on good terms, but I don't know, I'm just not feeling it. And my stomach's been bothering me. Yesterday, I started typing a blog post, and then I ended up typing 7000 words. And I think I fried my brain a little bit. There were parts of the day when I was typing, where I literally felt my body disappearing. And then I was remembering that I'm not supposed to be working on stuff like that, Oh, just one little quick blog post an update, and it turns into 7000 words. So I need to remember to go back to doing nothing, because this energy, if I put it into doing will augment that and I was making, I was writing an article about non doing, but then I did a lot of words.
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