I'm in the middle of watching a video it's an interview of dr. David Luca and Katie motrin on Katie motrins emerging proud blog website that she's doing and listen to 20 minutes and he's sharing his story about his spiritual awakening basically that could have been interpreted as pathology as psychosis as schizophrenia and is really interesting because he talks about how he dropped everything to sort of travel around North America hitchhiking in the 70s took LSD and then had sort of a spiritual awakening experience days later that went on for two months and he talked about how during the two months he just sort of crashed with friends and and nobody pathologized him you didn't end up in the psych ward and after the two months he went to live in a cabin that his parents had that was just a summer cabin so nobody was around and they let him live there they gave him permission to live there and he lived there for a while and then he seemed to have some some scary experiences but he was there by himself and he got through it and again he was never pathologized and that just makes me think of how after my two month experience I was seeing my parents take me somewhere quiet I need to go somewhere quiet so I knew that I needed that same thing but there was no required for me to go except for the panic room in the psych ward and and so he was able to heal there and then he said he heard a voice that said be a healer and so he didn't really know what that meant so he went to go live with his parents in his late 20s and and they paid for him to take things like yoga different psychology things and just a bunch of different classes like that because he was exploring being healer again they never pathologize him they never said he dropped out of Harvard they never said why don't you go get a job they let him explore and then after about six months of all that he realized he wanted to become psychologist so we did go back to school so was a long way around to go back to school but he ended up finding what it was he was passionate about and going back to school with that and to me it's exactly what needs to happen for people and I've even told this to some family groups that I've shared with when a person's going through a crisis it's even more important to just be unconditionally loving and let that person explore what they need to explore because as Sean Blackwell said bipolar disorder can also be called I can't be me disorder so it's really important for a person to feel like they can start to explore and rediscover who they are and what they really wanted to do and what they're all about and so he luckily had parents with the means to do that and the understanding because some parents with the means wouldn't necessarily understand and so he fully got through everything without ever being pathologized and I think that's more of a miracle then how it usually is for people usually people somebody pathologize as them and leads them into the psych ward or something like that and that's what happened to me I'm it's interesting because today I'm supposed to be working but I I can't really focus on work and yesterday I made some videos in the morning then I went bowling then I came back home and I'm like okay I'm going to get some work done because I there was a few things I needed to do and I opened up the document on my computer and nothing scary but Allison I had a pretty bad amount of so-called anxiety and so I tried to work on it for a little bit and I closed it I'm like wow this is brutal and so I just started editing my videos and within a little while that sensation went away and it didn't return so I'm thinking about this whole applied kinesiology thing and muscle testing you know I could say to myself oh should I continue with this job yes or no yes or no man push my arm which doesn't work for me anyways anymore because I could think of the job and it would make me weak if i push on my arm but it's strong like nothing makes my nerv
