There's five days left until I leave for California. I'm feeling like it's kind of like bipolar Meets World. I'm hoping to go for quite a few months. And when I get back, I was thinking that maybe I'll continue to wander a little bit, I'm not sure. When I get back, I want to bring ecpr here. And I also want to come continue with a low stress lifestyle in order to maybe come off my medications, I don't know. And perhaps with the help of EMP, or q 96, which is pretty much the same product, just called different names. And I got an email from the truehope people today, and they make that product. And there was a study done on their product. And I didn't read the study, but I read the abstract. And it said that I had 15 months of taking MP, as well as medication for psychosis. People that took the MP as well as the medication, got to reduce their meds a bit and also experienced less symptoms. And there wasn't really a difference until the 15 month point. And then there was even more of a difference and a benefit at 24 months. And I don't know how much they were taking and what medication they were taking and blah, blah, blah. But I will only been taking this EMP one a day for a month and a half. So I have a ways to go before it has an effect. At least with the protocol they used that I don't know. But I do know somebody who sells q 96. And they emailed me yesterday, and I had emailed them a while ago. But they finally got back to me yesterday. And I could have called them today, but I didn't. So maybe I will tomorrow and have a conversation because they might know a little bit about using it to come off lithium. And they did mention that usually, a person has to come off lithium very quickly when taking higher doses of EMP. So that's not something I'll do right now, because I'm leaving in five days. But when I get back, it's definitely one of my goals. And I had a crisis recently while taking lithium. So trying to come off of it. Maybe I'll have a crisis. But I have, I have the many way while taking it. So maybe it's not really benefiting me anymore. I don't know, we'll see. But for now, today, I picked up my lithium for my trip. So lot of lithium. And I was thinking about if I'm able to come off lithium one day, it would be a fun little ritual to go up to house ion springs, which is a lithium spring has a high level of lithium and dump the little capsules, open them up and then just dump them into the spring because we don't want to waste the lithium. And it'd be kind of fun to just give it back to the earth where it belongs and absorb it in proper doses by sitting in the spring. And so today I was doing some packing pretty much just throwing stuff in a corner. And I have to decide what to take. And I'm trying to decide which pair of rollerblades to take with me. I could take with me, my my hip nose gates, they're a little bit heavier. They have this fancy thing where you can take the blade off, I won't take it off but you can actually take off the wheels and then walk around. And considering that I'm not driving. These might be handy to have to actually skate around and maybe pick up something to eat and be able to do that very conveniently. Or I could take my kind of stylish K two skates, they have some really good bearings in them, some pretty good wheels. So I have to think about that. The hypno skates are also easier to pack, because I can take the wheels off, and then squash them in my bag a lot easier. And if I was driving down, I would take my mini trampoline and jump on the trampoline on the beach. But I'm not, I really feel like I have to mentally prepare for this change because I won't be working in mental health. Maybe I'll be talking about something totally different in my videos, I won't be connected with my community, I won't be connected with my family. And I feel a little bit afraid. But I also have this feeling that once I get there and see the sun and the beach and get settled that I'll feel perfectly fine.
