Welcome, welcome. And I want to say, today is world Suicide Prevention Day. And this topic is close to me, because I did lose a family member to suicide as well as I've been very close to it myself a few times because of dissociation, and having one part of me witnessing and observing another part of me, in the act of getting close to ending my own life. So the part that was watching didn't want that to happen. And then there was another part that was an acting that was getting closer and closer to it happening. And this other part of me felt very helpless. And yeah, somebody close to me did and their life, and I've had experiences and feelings where I didn't want my life to go on. But then it passes and it gets to a place again, where I enjoy living my life. So I just want to say, keep going and keep, keep trying, you never know when you'll get to a place where you really feel like you just want to live forever. And and another thing that's been happening recently is that I feel kind of conflicted about what's going on in my life and in the world. And I talked about with myself before how I wanted to, to step away from the mental health paradigm and get into a paradigm that I feel that my experiences that have been called bipolar have been pointing to, it could be said, that is sort of like another dimension or otherworldly in a way. And I was feeling like that. It's almost as if that magic world is more real, than this reality that we're all in right now, or most of us are in there could be other people that are here with us, but not really living in experiencing the consensus and mainstream world that that we are, and they might not even be able to sense it, they might not be able to sense that anything negative is going on or affecting the people of the world right now. And I do feel that part of the experience of bipolar, at least as I've experienced it is that I have a sense of that other world where everything, not everything, but things are generally operating on a different algorithm. different values, different ethics, different morals, different laws of physics, different consciousness, where it's not based on division, but it's based on oneness. And I feel like I was there. And I feel like I know I was there. I'm aware of it. And I feel like I know that now I'm back here where I'm sensing the mainstream troubles of the world. And I said to myself quite a while ago now that it seems like we're living in a mass psychosis. And I'm not the only one to say that. I came across YouTube channel called Academy of ideas. And, and they're talking about today's times as as a mass psychosis. But I thought to myself, and I said it to myself long before I discovered that channel and that video. So it was another one of those experiences where it kind of gets confirmed afterwards. Maybe if I said it out loud, my phone heard me then it's more likely than it will that it will be in the algorithm. And that could be or in the YouTube feed the algorithm for my YouTube feed, but that could actually be a benefit of saying something out loud. A lot of people I don't know what percentage but certain amount of people would think that the listening capacity of the phone is the detriment. But it could also be that it is a helpful thing because if we're saying something out loud to ourselves or someone else then that confirmation will show up in our YouTube feed. But then of course that can be that can be calm. formation bias. And something that I'm looking into and researching for the second book that I'm writing is confirmation bias or cognitive biases in general. And there are a lot of them. And the word bias is a bit biased towards negative i think we think of a bias as a negative thing. But of course, it's not all negative. And we have these biases. And there's probably a lot of scientific studies as to why we have these biases in general, partly to conserve energy, and to help us in making decisions faster than if we had to consider a
