Join me as my journey continues into PTSD and the relationship between it and suicide. First responders are at a heightened risk for suicide. Many times when we think of suicide we believe that it is or was a selfish act and can be very misunderstood as to why someone would consider taking their own life.
Our first responders can be exposed to significant amounts of trauma. So much so that the pain and suffering left behind long after the call continues to remain with the body and the mind. First responders may develop unhealthy coping skills in an attempt to block out the pain and suffering which in turn most times actually causes more harm.
If pain and suffering becomes significant and endured long enough some may seek solutions to this pain. For some they no longer hold the desire for self preservation and can contemplate harming themselves through addictive behaviours, suicide, suicidal thoughts or inflicting self harm to ones self.
The body and mind, when healthy, will actively stay away from at risk events or thoughts of harming itself; however, if unwell may actively seek out alternative solutions to end the pain and suffering one may be enduring.
I at one point had these thoughts, both in sobriety and in active addiction. Most deny suicidal thoughts as they equate it with the end act of actually taking your own life; however, suicidal ideation is a part of suicide and suicidal thoughts. It is the thought of no longer wanting to be here or possibly ending your own life. These thoughts are indicative that something larger at play is going on and there is no shame in acknowledging these thoughts.
If you are having these thoughts they should be discussed with your medical professional and I can assure you help does exist!
Thank you for listening and thank you for your support!
