I've always been a woman i may have grown my entire life presenting as a man but it was not me. It's kind of like wearing a costume and playing a role. It never felt fully real. I wasn't unhappy, I can't say the same for other people in the trans community but I had a good life I had a happy life it was a lot of fun you know I've i raised a family i have children i have a career I've gotten long-standing education you know I've even run for public office.
All fulfilling things i think most people would be very happy about and you know i was too but everything i did there was always just something missing something was not there and that's kind of an emptiness or like a falsehood that i couldn't explain and I spent my whole life trying to figure out what that was and why i felt that way and despite all the things that i went and did i couldn't answer that question.
It wasn't until i started talking to other people and then eventually finding coaches that were, you know “in the community” that were able to at least get me to explore a little bit deeper inside of my own mind and my own history to look for things that may have been indicators as to why i felt the way i did.
So that helped tremendously having that community outreach having other people to at least bounce concerns off of and anyone else out there who's currently going through this situation i highly recommend that you find community leaders a group somebody you can confide in you know your your closest friend even a family member and try to talk it out you know discover what's really going on.
So this episode explores the beginnings of Jynx.
