The interview starts with a celebration of the dedication Vicki has made to herself and her Future Self over the past 5 years.
Cassie asks, what did that dedication look like for you?
Vicki shares,
Consistency and showing up even when I didn't want to. 20 minutes a day, 5 days a week, showing up. Not only that, I showed up the rest of every day the way I wanted to.
Cassie asks What did using the law of attraction look like for you 5-6 years ago?
Vicki shares,
Lots of “To-Do’s”
Mantras
Vision boards
Journaling
Specifics
Meditating
Stress
Self-blame
Cassie asks: you used to struggle with depression in the past. How much of that do you think came from the forcing of “good” feelings and forcing all of your “to-do’s”?
Vicki shares
Because I was pushing so much of the “good” feelings, I was pushing away the sadness and anger that would come up throughout my life. Then the bubble would burst, and I would have to feel ALL of those big “bad” feelings all at once. That would take me down, totally incapacitated. I would allow the big, sad feelings to take over my life for however long it was. A week, a month, whatever it was. It affected every aspect of my life for that period of time. Because I hadn’t been allowing myself to feel them - those little doses throughout my life, I’d just push them down. Then they’d come out like one big ugly monster.
When you feel it all the time, it doesn’t grow into a monster. When you push it down, it gains momentum and power to become this huge monster. Rather than just feeling it in those smaller, more frequent doses and not giving it the juice to become that big monster.
Cassie asks Vicki if she used to do a lot of self-blame when she did LoA. What did that look like, how was that, and how did that play into depression?
Vicki tells us
I’d constantly look at my life and say, “You weren’t able to manifest xyz. It’s your fault because you tried to manifest it, and it didn’t work. And the only reason you don’t get something when you’re manifesting is because you’re not doing it right. Or because you did something wrong.” I spent 6 years thinking that.
It’s sad that some people come into LoA with this mindset, trying to make their lives better when in actuality, it’s making their lives worse.
I believed it and saw it work a couple of times, so when something went “wrong,” or I didn’t get what I wanted, I looked back and saw that the common denominator was me. So I was the problem.
Now it’s so freeing finding ELU and discovering you could just turn the page and start new. Go from exactly where you are and move forward without having to look back and analyze and accuse yourself of things you did in the past. You can just choose to move forward.
Cassie asks is the biggest difference in using the law of attraction now vs. then?
Vicki shares,
I feel confident and calm using LoA
I spend less time “doing” and more time living the life of my dreams
I am successful at it
They wrap up by telling us what next week’s episode will be about. Why is LoA working now when it wasn’t working before? When on paper, it seemed like Vicki was doing “all” of the things that should’ve worked and had worked for other people before. They will also discuss if the life she’s living now is the one she wanted back then. Also how she has more money now without a job compared to when she was working 3+ jobs and had LESS money.
Vicki:
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