Welcome to Episode 83: My spiritual walk after grief
This is a vulnerable episode so be nice! LOL
Ice Breaker:
Scripture Cards by 5 Below:
"Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen your heart, all ye that hope in the Lord Psalm 31:24
Psalm 31:24English Standard Version
24 Be strong, and let your heart take courage,
all you who wait for the Lord!
Topic: Topic: Do you still believe in God?
- Today is Technically my Jesus Anniversary
- Yes.
- I am proclaimed Christian. I probably fall into the non-denomination.
- So, there was a time when I thought I did not believe in God, but even when I would say it out loud, I would still do some of the same things, such as pray, go to God, and even read the bible.
- My outlook on the Christian living and God is different. I’ve had to separate man from God (which is extremely hard).
- But my belief in what I used to believe is different. I fall into the category of deconstructing Christianity.
- Let’s break that down; what is deconstructing?
- First I have to ask, What do I believe? Do I believe in God, do I believe in Jesus Christ, and do I believe that he is the one and only way to God?
- I’ll be honest, I’ll say yes but I do say it hesitantly because I struggle with there is only one way and one way only. But ultimately, I believe that is my foundation.
- I no longer believe that I have to save people. Once I realized that I did not have to be God, my world changed. My disbelief was coming from not seeing people be saved by me. But I realized God never asked me to be God. God asked me to believe in His Son and lay everything at the foot of the cross.
- The Bible- with this, I take a more episcopalian approach. The Bible is fallible, not infallible. Meaning, the bible is up for interpretation and not set in stone. The Bible has historical facts and times that relate to that specific era. The Bible is here as an example.
- I no longer find church to be productive and while I do miss it, I miss the community. I could not even listen to a teacher in a classroom teach to me, I can not go to church and be preached at.
- Worship how the church's worship has never done anything for me. Being around a group of people singing was not me worshipping. But I could go into a silent room and journal or write or even talk to God and worship. Worship looks so different to me now. My opinion is that most people in the church are doing what everyone else is doing but the heart posture isn’t right.
- The hard truth, is God is going to be God whether I believe in Him or not. God doesn’t need me. I need God. I can not change God.
Affirmation: I am grateful for each moment that God gives me.
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