The first birthday without tears where I did not cry because I missed my grandmother. Its a weird feeling because I am questioning myself, why I didn't cry.
I believe the pain of her death and absence on earth is not as severe as it once was. I still miss her a lot and its crazy its been 6 years and I finally feel ok talking about. I can finally have vivid thoughts & conversations about her without getting extremely emotional.
This process took over half a decade, and the grieving process isn't linear. ITs been one helluva journey and Im glad to have healed to this point.
