ooweeooo! it has been a minute. your boy took a hiatus from the podcast for a bit. but we diving back in. i'm still in SE asia so it won't be as interview based. i recently made the decision to pursue my career as an artist more full time. so this will be an outlet to document that journey. i'm capturing it in video for youtube and figured i'd give folks the option to listen to if they'd rather not have to see my scruffy mug. so i'll be uploading again weekly. it might even take a new direction that i haven't even thought of yet. who knows. life is messy. why not have some fun with it?
alright here goes. i've been posting weekly about the journey but this weeks is especially in depth. .
not so much a weekly update as a psychological review. been digging deep lately. questioning my true intentions, long-held beliefs, and doing an overall re-evaluation of where we’re taking this thing.
maybe it’s because i’m pushing 30, maybe it’s because being out here has bought me time to think. but working through some shit and felt compelled to share the process with you.
still going to be making beats (you already know. if you need music hit the batphone) but switching my focus toward my own joints. think i’ve been working on the beats because it’s much more lucrative and less vulnerable.
in this episode i share some of my past failures (we’ll call them lessons) struggling to be an independent artist, and some of the left over residue i’m still working through. there’s a lot to unpack there in terms of identity, but realize the only way to get through that fear is just to do it more.
i keep trying to build businesses so that i have time to work on my own tracks. i think i’m guilty of doing that a lot. maybe we all do. “first i’ll do this and THEN i’ll be able to do what i really want”. it’s like...why not just do what you want to do...now? i felt the same about traveling. “i’ll have my career first, retire, and THEN i can go travel”. instead, let’s find a way to engineer this thing so we can cut to the chase.
before you know it life happens. and the shit goes hella fast. Ferris Bueller ain’t playin. i realize that i don’t need to build a biz to have the time, because i already have the time. the teaching isn’t going anywhere. if i can do that indefinitely, what am i waiting for?
i’m at a point where i can make beats i dig. my vocal mixing is far from perfect but constantly working on it and seeing progress. so going to try and write more jams. get back in the habit of using those other music muscles. hopefully with some creativity and elbow grease i can get momentum going.
appreciate all of you who have supported and continue to share your perspective on this adventure. taking it one day at a time. grateful to have the opportunity to even do the damn thing 🙏
