Welcome to Episode 106 of my podcasts if you from the crow's nest. And I believe the time or the date is Saturday the 19th of September, 2020, despite the fact that my phone says the 20th of September, but I believe that's because it's three in the morning, by the time I'm recording this. So what is the view from the crow's nest. Today well. I spent a huge amount of time, like four or five hours of my day, focused on, Italian, and learning Italian and trying to learn Italian and trying, trying to learn Italian and blah blah blah. So if you've been following the podcast for the last bunch of days you'll realise that I have a test on Tuesday that is stressing me more than anything that pretty much never stressed me before in my life, and I really wish to pass it on Tuesday and so I'm studying hard, and I'm trying hard, but maybe I've left it too late, I don't know, we'll see. So that's what's led to nigh on five hours of study day. It would have been a longer day of working etc except I had. What did I have had my personal training session this morning, but the time I recovered from that which, to be fair was not as challenging as it could have been on other days. It was still pretty much midday and then. Ah, that's what it was. And then we sorted out. Blackfeet, then we sorted out the internet for our moved Castroville here in a couple of weeks, and we sorted out the gas, and the electricity and when I say we, I mean Samana. We did it all in one go because there was like his offer we had about seven minutes to accept it or not because the Italians don't work in a normal way you know up on the spot you got to do this, you got to do this or it doesn't ever come back again ever point being that within a few hours. We measure the gas, electricity, or the internet, the new place which is a whole bunch of bull a we have our bills that we would have last year, and got permanent internet hits, that's good. And then I focused on Italian, and I didn't do any music whatsoever and then this evening. We had a video call with old friends of mine from uni. Guys, our main unit guys are played to the bandwidth guys I lived with my best mates, we drifted apart cabinet gather, etc etc. And the overarching thing which happens every single time I meet up with them is this to me. I massively Miss, and you may tell I'm bit wrong now. But for me, I massively miss the, the potential that we had the opportunity that was in front of us. I see the bigger picture I see the thing that we could have become the ceiling, we could have done, and personally I don't believe that they see that, and it's a shame because one of them is one of the greatest rhythm guitar players ever in my life and the other one is one of the best musicians I've ever met in my life. And the three of us together. I feel. We're more than the sum of our parts. And so I feel it's very different depressing for one of a better word, that, you know, didn't work out and to me it's like a marriage. You know you try and put together a band and over the years I've tried to put together enough bands, and every band is like a match about seven people on account, the basis is married to the guitarist basis married to the singer the bass match the drama there's three marriages right there. And then when you multiply that up, even just by four people. And then you can see how many marriages are in the band. And so me and myself and the other person. We live together we played together I felt we were totally married together. But it didn't work out, I mean I honestly feel like it's like. In fact, I live, as I said a few days ago I live, mostly in the future. Rarely do I live in the present. Absolutely. Nearly never do I live in the past, except when I think of times with these guys. And then that is my past, because that I feel is a real shame. I feel it's really shaped my future. And it's a real shame because I think we had something. So talking to them tonight, always seems to bring back that shade
