Welcome to Episode 172 of my podcast The view from the crow's nest. It is Monday the seventh of December 2020. Today, I didn't have good sleep. I was feeling. I was, I was feeling a bit blue. After recording yesterday's podcast. So because I'd spent the last two days basically watching these music documentaries about all these old. Well, the singers but from these rock bands I really admire that have been going kind of 3040 years. And that already makes me feel slightly blue potentially, and then add a great question from Roy. If you're listening Thank you Roy yesterday which I answered about my own musical career and background and blah blah blah. And that basically made me feel blue, maybe feel a bit low. So, I went to bed, and then just when I was feeling a bit blue Simona said a couple of things to me regarding the kids, which wasn't exactly what she was saying but I didn't take it the wrong way but it just reminded me that. Basically, it's very difficult to balance everything you know what you need to do what you want to do what you have to do your dreams, etc. And to get them to pay out so I went to bed feeling a little bit. And we had a chat similar and I, and also she was feeling a bit office yesterday, and so we discussed stuff and. Long story short, by the time I fell asleep I was feeling a lot better but it was a lot later. And then I can see it for a bit. Ironically, I went I did get save I was actually feeling really excited and really positive and focused on 2021 2021, because I'm really, really focused next year, not just on music but on performing again on. Yeah, gigging on being a being a performer, not just somebody who kind of writes few songs occasionally and records a few things occasionally but really, you know, upping the gears to the detriment of a lot of other things. And for the last month six weeks something like that I've been pretty month. I've been practising a set and about a month ago, I felt I couldn't even if somebody asked me to play one song I couldn't I was too embarrassed or too shy and. Fast forward to today and I'm feeling good mouth like I've got the best vocal control range and tone that I think I've ever had. Best pitching. And it's not saying that I'm great, just saying, best that I've had. And I just feel like I'm moved up a gear, you know, literally. So I'm putting together a set of my songs and it's inspired me to start writing a bit more I feel like I want to write a bit more. So I came up with a bit of a plan for next year to go back to one of my classic stock phrases Do what you can with what you have right now. I could look at it as, Oh, I'm in the south of Italy, there's nothing going on here. I'm on the opposite end of the world there's no chance of doing anything with music. Or I could look at it as I'm in this place where there's no competition, they're starved of music, apparently according to sumana. You know, I'm exotic because I'm from London. Never thought that would be the case. And being a rock, blues type of guy from London. That in itself will be a bit of a draw for especially for people in this far south of Italy where we are. And we have a plan to have lots of days out especially when we're allowed to and when you know probably the other side of Christmas in the new year. Last this time last year we got into really good habit of once a week we're going for a brilliant day out. And we'd go to a village, or a tourist attraction and then in the morning and then we would have lunch in a local restaurant and it was just glorious and then in the afternoon go visit something else and the whole family thoroughly enjoyed it. In fact, I don't know if I've shared them yet but I've been putting together over the bit of time some videos, these days are on education by travel on our YouTube I think, which is our much neglected kind of Family Education stroke travel blog. Anyhow, We've done really well and then coronavirus hit, and that was it, then pay to them. So we want to
