Sometimes healing doesn't look like big breakthroughs and revelations. Sometimes it looks like small and repeated moments of self awareness and getting beneath every doubt, every worry, every insecurity, every hurt, every trigger every negative belief or emotion until you reach the cause or until you finally realize what belongs to you and what doesn't.
Shedding your layers is the beginning- middle- and end of the work. Pulling back piece by piece, piece of pain, hook by hook until you get to your core. Unraveling yourself until there's nothing left but YOU. It doesn't have to be this big ah-ha. It doesn't have to feel like an in your face - explosion. Sometimes the healing is happening through each of these small moments of awareness, clarity & mindfulness.
Each time you sit in silence, each time you journal your thoughts, each time you sit with your feelings, each time you seek for the teacher in the trigger. Moment by moment, becoming friends with your feelings. Until all of a sudden you realize, 'WOAH, that doesn't affect me like it once did'.
This process of shedding layers of yourself starts with bravery, honesty, compassion and intention. You start with reliving the moments you didn’t think you could survive, and removing the power you gave them to dictate who you’d become. You start with recognizing the root of your behaviors, thoughts or feelings, and discovering ways to overcome them. You start with identifying the ways you may have failed yourself and the way life may have failed you, and letting it go. Peeling back the layers that you've been carrying for so long that are not serving you until you discover the person you truly are.
Each layer you shed making you feel lighter. Do this work until you feel lighter; do it until you feel like you’ve finally let go of everything that was weighing you down. Stop looking for the big break throughs, the intense moments of healing. Instead, pay attention to all of the smaller moments, all of the smaller wins, all of the moments where you've sat with our feelings and made sense of them, all of the moments were you give yourself compassion instead of beating yourself up. THOSE are just as important as the big breakthroughs.
Awareness, curiosity, be friending your feelings, self compassion, integration repeat...
Be proud of how far you've come, dont judge where you're at. You're doing enough. Trust in this process, this journey, and in YOU.
XO, Amanda
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