This episode was the most difficult to record, but it is also the one I am most proud to share. Because as well as talking about family, we talk about death. And I think we could do with a few more conversations around this mysterious, yet inevitable human experience.
I tell Patrick about the week before Mum died, and how I couldn’t quite believe what was happening. I speak about the days afterwards, when my new reality hadn’t sunk in yet and all I felt was calm. Rather than crying with sadness, my brothers and I watched Gavin and Stacey, eating croissants and loads of homemade pasta bakes (thank you lovely neighbours).
It’s not all sad (I promise!). We talk about why I should be a travel agent, vodka shots on gravestones and the only hate mail I ever sent my parents.
Patrick and I wanted to say... this is definitely the heaviest episode and one section gets more emotional than usual. If you think you’re not in the right space to listen to it, we’d skip between 9:10 and 24:10.
If you have any thoughts, or reflections I’d love to hear them. Email me at FeelingGriefyElla@gmail.com
Here is my blog: https://www.cancerispants.co.uk/blog
I'll post a few pics to go with each episode on Instagram. Follow me here: https://www.instagram.com/ellalouisehowes/
The artwork is by Amelia McCurdy, the music is by Eden Townend and the producer is Patrick Thomas.
Amelia - https://www.instagram.com/marigolddough/
Eden - https://soundcloud.com/eden-townend
Patrick - https://www.instagram.com/thepatrickt/
