we put a lot of pressure on our 18-year-old selves to get it right for our life. choose right then and there and any deviation from that vision at that moment is perceived as a failure. i know my life as i saw it was going to be a golden ticket based on my athletic ability and i audaciously dreamed that path would unlock all the doors. when that didn't i shrunk in all forms. i didn't have a strong pivot from the death of my dream.
