this is a struggle point for me. in an attempt to be happy because that is where i always felt best i would just pass by thing after thing after thing in order to pass the pain. i don't live in the real world. i do not like pain. i do not like bad endings. i do not like acknowledging that things are bad. i like things to be great all the time. i like there to be beauty. and because that is who i am i struggle to not just rush past everything to get to "happiness."
