How do you handle setbacks? This week I'm sharing a glimpse into our first setback (of many, I'm sure) on the road to becoming parents through adoption. We're early in the process, but we were close to signing with an agency...until our funding fell through. Disappointed, yes, but discouraged we are not. We WILL be parents, just not on our timing. So I'm learning how I handle setbacks in this season of life. The answer so far, is not as well as I would have hoped, but through the lens of love, not bad at all. I'm not drinking nor is it a factor. I'm sober, healthy, married to an amazing man and haven't I cried in 2 whole days! This wouldn't be the case a few years ago. So I'll give myself credit there. I am a work in progress. The greatest breakthroughs come after breakdowns and I think this one opened me up for some serious growth.
I needed to get vulnerable here and let you know that although I know and share all the things to do to stay sober, spiritually aligned and living in harmony with the spirit of the universe, I also struggle HARD sometimes. I missed an episode last week. I couldn't muster any good words. I have been avoiding all the things that I normally find comfort and grounding in. No meditation. No journaling. No exercise or healthy movement. No greeting the sunrise with gratitude. The one day I did try to meet the sun I got a ticket. It's been a doozy of a pity party y'all. But I'm here, dusting myself off and bringing awareness to what I've been choosing.
Today I'm choosing to give up faith in the ways of the world. I'm choosing to embrace the world of spirit-unconditionally. I'm choosing to trust that any setback is a redirection on my path. This pain is a blessing. We know we want to be parents, to raise kids, to grow our family and share our love with a new life. I'm ditching the drug of doubt-which undermines my confidence and sends me seeking approval before making decisions. I have every right to have confidence in myself and be trusting of sprit. I'm giving myself a big 'ol break and trusting the Universe completely.
