After leaving the Army, I often found myself wanting to go back, but I knew deep down my dreams of a military career were over. Years later I would become an Army spouse and while a part of me was attracted to the idea of being connected to the military again, I quickly discovered everything felt wrong. For this episode, I visit one of my journals and share what I wrote about the push and pull I have experienced with the Army ever since I was honorably discharged. How the good memories keep me coming back to this place, but the bad ones leave me wishing I could leave once I am here.
