Amy Fillinger is a travel agent and mom of three living in Arkansas. When Amy discovered ibogaine through social media, she assumed she’d learned about it to help her ex-husband who was suffering from alcohol use disorder, until she realized it was a tool that could help her on her own healing journey. She underwent ibogaine treatment at Beond about six months prior to the recording of this episode to help her heal from codependency and post-traumatic stress.
What we discuss:
Codependency and the idea of “relationship addiction”
Amy’s path to the medicine and her first impression of ibogaine
How Amy was feeling mentally, emotionally and physically before her ibogaine treatment
Amy’s understanding of her codependent behavior before treatment
Her intentions for the ibogaine experience, including facilitating forgiveness and letting go of anger
The insights Amy received in her journey about her life, and particularly about her future
Amy’s use of social media to document her (continuing) journey
Using movement as an integration tool
The self-limiting beliefs Amy experienced as a result of being in a codependent relationship
How Amy’s relationship with family and romantic partners have shifted since her treatment
Amy’s advice for other people who may be struggling with codependent behavior
Why it’s important:
Codependency is a learned behavior that can be passed down from one generation to another. It is an emotional and behavioral condition that affects an individual’s ability to have a healthy, mutually satisfying relationship. Codependency is sometimes referred to as “relationship addiction” because people with codependency often form or maintain relationships that are one-sided, emotionally destructive or abusive. It often affects a spouse, parent, or sibling of a person suffering from substance use disorder. Some estimates suggest that over 90 percent of the American population demonstrates codependent behavior from time to time. Amy’s experience with ibogaine is another example of how this powerful psychedelic medicine can help us work through an incredible gamut of struggles, issues and maladaptive coping mechanisms, whether we’re dealing with an addiction to a substance, a behavior, or a way of thinking.
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