I wanted to work at NASA when I grew up. I also wanted to be an actress. I wanted to be rich and never have to worry about money. I left for college to be a math major because my math teacher in high school told me I’d never make it. One of my peers in class told me I should stick to punching numbers in a calculator because that’s what I do best.
The more criticisms I heard, the more I believed them. Why try when I believed I couldn’t. So, I set out on a fight, but it was against myself, and it lasted 30 years. Drinking turned up the volume of that negative self-talk, and I stuck with doing things that I was good at already. I stopped reaching up and started digging down.
I didn’t end up at NASA, and I’m not an actress, although I exceed in being dramatic. I’m not rich, but I still tell my kids what I’m going to do when I am. 😂 I don’t regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it, because without everything happening just as it did, I wouldn’t be right where I am. After all, it could ‘a been me stranded in space for five months.
My obsession with alcohol used to speak to me every day. Now, gratitude has taken its place.
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