Thirty fucking years. Thirty years of my life spent punishing myself.
For what?
Why on earth would someone do that to themselves for so long? And how? What possible reason causes such a daily torrent of abuse?
Hi, I’m Kelly and I am a recovering food addict. I spent all of my days thinking about food and punishing myself with food. I stuffed my face stupid until my belly was close to exploding. I loathed myself into this ridiculous punishment.
It was all-consuming. It took over every part of my life and it became so ingrained into every part of my being that I did it without ever questioning it.
Because I didn’t know there was another way to be.
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My mind won’t shut the fuck up. It’s always telling me how awful I am, how fat I am, how unworthy I am.
And, I’ve fucken had ENOUGH!
The best part is, I don’t actually have to listen to this mean voice inside my head anymore.
But, now comes the hard part. Cleaning up all of its mess and getting rid of every single fucked up word it has ever spoken to me.
This is my therapy. My way of healing. And, sharing all I have learnt over the last few years.
So, enjoy my fucked up thoughts every fortnight.
With work, home life, family and all of that stuff, fortnightly is all I can achieve right now. And, that’s ok! I’m here. I’m doing it. I’m loving it.
So, keep on shouting “SHUT THE FUCK UP!”.
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Remember…
There is no love outside of you greater than the love inside of you.
Listen. Learn. Love.
Kelly
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