When I was in Europe I had already made the decision to actually try this other lifestyle. To shift courses in terms of being involved in a heterosexual relationship. I broke up with my boyfriend who I have been with for five years with the understanding that I wanna feel like I don't have, I'm not cheating on anybody back in the states if I'm doing this. And he basically said, well we don't have to break up just go and do your thing. I'm sure you'll come back and we'll be together. And so I went to Europe literally I went with the understanding that I was going to get involved in a relationship with a woman. And so literally when I went to Germany I ended up in a relationship with a man and I told him from the very beginning but this is not going to be a relationship. I'm not up for that. I really want to explore my sexuality and really just see what's on the other side.
