This week I was reflecting on an episode where I was actually triggered by being called nice. I talked about how kindness isn't a weakness and went to great passionate lengths (which I still stand by) about being called nice. But after going through the condition and since being a mother, being called nice doesn't upset me anymore and would not be received in the way I did back then. My kindness is a flex - there are plenty of people who don't have it.
I'm so far away from the girl who got called nice and got upset because SHE made it mean she was weak/not good enough. During the condition/where I'm at now came this huge ego death, where I've had to ask and accept help and speak when I need to and I have to trust so deeply that I'm doing ok while thinking of everything that could possibly go wrong - I can do that AND still be kind. and it's a forking flex!
