Let’s get real: sometimes things don’t go as planned. There is this misconception (read "hope") that following Jesus will automatically make life pain-free and debt-free. That’s not in the Bible. Jesus didn’t promise that, but He did promise that we won’t have to fear, that we will have peace and strength and provision to make it through. Stop blaming God for expectations you put Him.
And stop taking on more than God has asked of you. Listen to Jesus, the Waymaker knows what He is doing.
“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” - Matthew 11:28-30 NKJV