In this episode of Fall From Grace, Tony shares one of the most confronting chapters of his story ā the period where addiction didnāt look like chaos, but control.
āThe Day I Couldnāt Pretend Anymoreā explores high-functioning addiction, shame, and the quiet erosion that happens long before everything collapses. Tony breaks down what addiction was actually like for him, why judgement makes it worse, and how neuroscience helps explain why stopping isnāt just about willpower.
This episode also marks the moment where pretending became impossible ā and where a single phone call changed the trajectory of his life.
If youāve ever felt like you were holding it together on the outside while falling apart inside, this episode is for you.
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ā ļøĀ CONTENT WARNING
This episode contains discussion of addiction, mental health distress, psychosis, and a personal crisis point involving thoughts of not wanting to continue living.
There is no graphic detail or method description.
Listener discretion is advised.
If this content feels overwhelming, please pause or seek support.
CHAPTERS
01:46 There's A Version Of Addiction We Don't Talk About Much
02:31 Life Didn't Stop & That's What's Messed With My Head The Most
04:20 Uncomfortable Truths About Addiction
05:43 What Do We Know Today About Addiction?
09:18 Hope To Bring Humanity To These Conversations Rather Than Judgement
10:22 Reflection On What We Know Today
10:36 My Body Showing Signs Well Before My Ego Caught Up
11:56 Crossroads
14:21 Arriving At St Vinnies Hospital, Melbourne
15:10 Support Is Available
15:47 Thank You For Listening Today
