I’m broken down
Sadness to frown
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Where am I going?
What is my knowing?
Why can’t I see?
Even as I trust serendipity
Is it as simple as trusting me?
I co-create with life
I can’t fight with strife
Because that to, is me
The experience I decided to have
To learn and grow
Sometimes to row
We must release
Everything we thought we believed
Tears down the cheeks
Signs of grief
Signs of holding on
Signs of days now gone
Where have I come from?
Where do I belong?
Inside I feel home
Outside I see home
Even through this movement
Even through this chaos
I will not waiver
From the path of my heart
Because I have at last
Learnt to surrender and listen
Forget asking for permission
Forget finding truth in the words of others
Hiding under the covers
I won’t smother you
Smother me
Sacrifice who I came here to be
Who I already am
So many chaotic waters I’ve swam
So many dead ends
So many times I’ve tried hard to blend in
So many times my tears have been received by empty space
So many times I couldn’t trace the source of the wound
The sacred rage that would scream through
I can hold space for all of you
Because I can hold space for all of me
The darkness
The intricacies
My role is to simply be
Sit in stillness and breathe
Weave with nature
Knowing I am my only saviour
The source that flows through me
The source that shows endless possibility
The source providing all I ever need
In this moment
In this Now
Because seeking more has me lost in many paths of “but how?”
Nature takes me through the cycles of my many deaths
And rebirths
Yes, it is nature reminds me of my pace
Approaching this life with seeds of grace
All I really ask for is space
To create
To serve
To soothe those who’s soul starve
From an endless seeking
I am a soul that lives as unconditional love
Maybe one day I’ll remember that this is enough
That there’s nothing more I need do
Than choose to be who I am
Until that day of full remembrance
I’ll practice
I’ll learn
I’ll grow
Choosing to live by what I know
Embracing my rivers that flow
I am a being of light
I am a bring of dark
I am everything
I am whole
I am not the roles the human wears
I’m not scared by steps that ask me to let go
Yes, I trust what I know
And what I know is not something that I can tell you
For it is not a thing devised by the mind
But a feeling as endless a time
A feeling I place into my rhymes
A feeling I see through the signs
Future me left behind
What I know is a feeling
That asks for deep healing
That asks for trust
In the stuff of dreams
Not of beliefs
No, this is pure magic
Pure beauty
I sometimes wish you could see this all of me
My depth
My simplicity
How free I feel
The knowing of what is real
That love is enough to heal
That’s why I don’t seal my lips shut
I trust that my writing holds keys
The wisdom Source whispers through me
Maybe, as we listen we discover what we seek
Maybe, as these words we speak
We remember all is not as it seems
We look behind the veil of illusion
The curtain of separation
We remember unity
Maybe, this is my way home
Remembering that as I journey, I am never alone
Both the queen who sits on her throne
And the one who kneels in awe
At the ways life closes and opens doors
Where you are both more
And what you have
I find it hard to say exactly what I mean
Everything is more than it seems
And now I deeply believe
That what I need is inside
That what I need is not hide the love that I am
Because a strand of hair
From the crescent moon bear isn’t what will save me
But remembering that I’ve always been free
Trusting in the knowing that I now see
with love,
Emma
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