Welcome to the Nobel Soul Podcast,
Back in September, I started thinking deeply about Christianity again. This isn’t new. I have felt both drawn to and repelled by Christianity in my 30’s.
Funnily enough, the men who I am often romantically drawn to are Christian men. There are a lot of good things that can be said about the Christian faith.
Three years ago I fell for a Conservative Christian who lives in the US. We debated a lot about Christian beliefs.
Thankfully, my stance on Christianity has softened, there are still some Christian beliefs that I cannot see eye to eye with, but in recent times I at least attempted to see those beliefs from a Christian man or woman’s perspective.
I did this because I want to understand and not judge people for their beliefs. A part of me has also wanted to call myself a Christian for several years now.
After I shared all my beliefs regarding Christianity with my friend and subscriber, Piyush, I started reading the New Testament for the first time in my life, as well as 4 Christian books that came with it.
I do resonate with a lot of Christian views. As I write now, I am still wearing a cross necklace, which was to celebrate the start of my bible reading journey in early October.
Do I consider myself a Christian now? Yes and no. I may touch on that in future podcast episodes. But for now, here are some of the thought’s I shared with Piyush on the 23rd and 27th of September, 2025:
Hell and Eternal Damnation
I do not believe in eternal damnation. This belief is what has largely put me off Christianity. My parents were good. Just because they didn’t confess Jesus as their Lord and Saviour (although they did believe in him) doesn’t mean that they went to hell when they died.
If that were the case, I would rather burn in hell with them than have a small heavenly party. No thanks. I am interested in reading the bible, not out of fear, but out of love.
God loves us as we are. I don’t believe that we have to believe in eternal damnation to be able to connect with God. I see it more as suffering on earth if we don’t allow God’s love into our hearts. I believe that there is always an opportunity for salvation in the afterlife. I wish that that was something that the bible taught.
Even though it doesn’t, it doesn’t mean that I can’t still read it with an open mind and heart. I still see it as a great guiding map in life, when used wisely, and another way to feel closer to God. I will take what feels right for me, intuitively, and leave what doesn’t.
Christians can judge me for that all they like. But I believe that if we have good intentions in our hearts, and do good, regardless of what we believe, or what we label ourselves as, we are on the right track.
I interpret eternal damnation as our own personal hell on earth. It’s when our minds and egos take a front seat when they should be sitting way at the back so that our true divine self may drive!
There are so many ways to get trapped in cages in our lives. The most important thing we can do is become self-aware and notice when we are caging ourselves in, in whatever way that may be, and to find our way out of our self-imposed cages. It’s a journey that’s for sure! I do believe in the power of prayer and also that Jesus can be a guiding light to help us break free.
Homosexuality and Polyamory
I have debated about homosexuality a lot in the past. Fighting for what I believed in with a Christian was fruitless, as he believed that everything that is written in the bible is the truth. My stance is that any promiscuity, be it heterosexual or homosexual, is not God’s ideal plan for us. It should ideally be within a marriage or loving committed relationship, in my view.
My stance on polyamory is live and let live. If it’s done with love rather than just lust, I think it’s OK. I wouldn’t condemn people for being sexually liberated. I do feel however, that this lifestyle could lead to a lot of unnecessary pain and drama.
Perhaps polyamory feels right for some people temporarily. One day they may look differently at it and lean more towards monogamy.
I’m sure that there are plenty of polyamorous people who are conscious people who lead with love and who communicate well to those they lovingly interact with. They may not all be sex machines, rather sex is a bi-product of their love.
Polyamory has nothing to do with Christianity, quite the opposite. It’s just me again looking at a lifestyle that is very different to mine. I want to embrace people from all walks of life, not just the ones who align with my personal beliefs.
It’s very easy in life to have an “Us vs Them” attitude, but that gets us nowhere in life. It’s better, I feel, to get curious, and try to look at other peoples way of life through their eyes. Rather than from a judgmental or narrow minded perspective.
I have learnt that there is more than just one way to look at something. In recent months, I have tried to do this with Christian beliefs that aren’t popular by the masses. It’s always possibly to soften our views on things :).
That doesn’t mean that we have to agree with, or adopt, the way other people their lives, it just means being kind and showing others the same respect that we would like to receive. More love, less condemnation!
Sure, people make mistakes and many are not living in the way that is best for them, or those around them. There are times we may need to offer wise advice, but not everyone is open to that and we need to respect everyone’s journey. The best thing we can do is focus on improving the way we live our lives and lead by example.
It’s easy for me to say all this of course I do not believe in eternal damnation. I do believe in karma, however, and that we reap what we sew. There are consequences for the decisions we make in life, but we also have the opportunity to create heaven on earth, I believe.
My goal in life is to become more and more conscious. I realise, that I have caused much of my own mental and emotional suffering. Knowing that is empowering, coz it makes me realise, that I can also flip a switch and day by day, start living the life of my dreams. More on that in a future episode!
Death Penalty
As for the death penalty. I have always been against it but that doesn’t mean that I can’t see other peoples point of views. I can understand that many will believe that it is less likely that there will be copycat shootings if they know what the consequence of that decision will be. I don’t know if the death penalty is part of Gods plan. One could argue (and on Charlie Kirk’s channel one did argue) that who is to say that locking someone up isn’t preventing Gods Plan?
I would love to see that people are given the opportunity to change their direction, while behind bars. The question is... When (if ever) do we know that it’s safe to release them back into society? Actions speak louder than words. I like to believe that many of us intuitively can tell when someone is being honest and has seen the light and become a good man (or woman). But we may not truly know that they are sincere until we can read their hearts (which perhaps, some can!) Many will argue that only God can truly do that.
As dark as these shootings are... I still think many of them are part of Gods greater plan. I heard once, that good souls even choose to become murderers in this lifetime (that’s if you believe that we largely determine our own life path, which I do) to help others grow in forgiveness, and to also learn hard lessons themselves in order to help their souls grow.
We all have done bad things in our past lives, Piyush. There is hope for all of us, to continue to grow, forgive, and redirect ourselves to Gods light.
Abortions
I have always been very pro-choice. That said, I’m not fond of abortions. I wouldn’t have one myself. But sometimes mothers do it because they feel it is the best thing for them and their child as they aren’t in the situation to provide a good, healthy, happy home for him/her.
Still, if it’s possible for a baby to have a good life with their parents or be adopted to a good home, I do lean more towards pro-life. But that said, it’s very difficult for a mother to have to say goodbye to their child!
There wouldn’t be so many abortions if there wasn’t so much casual sex. With some choices come consequences. If you can take responsibility for your actions, you can turn something unplanned or initially unwanted into something beautiful.
As for the gay topic. I thought more about it while walking the dog this evening. I fought hard to stand up for gay people when I passionately debated Christian beliefs with a Christian friend a few years ago. Those were trying times, for many reasons.
I’m glad it’s in the past and that I also have matured a bit since then, to not get angry and offended about Christian views anymore (for the most part). You can’t pray the gay away. The conversion therapy gay people have gone through in the past is disgusting. In nature, there are plenty of gay animals.
Is it not a sin to lie about your sexuality and marry someone who is of the opposite sex, whom you don’t truly love? I saw a video of a gay Mormon couple a few years ago who left the church and their husbands. Being with each other felt like the most natural, beautiful, loving thing in the world.
Up until recently I did believe that you can’t pray the gay away, however I did see a video where former gay men and women proclaimed that they are now straight and are happily married. Good for them, but this isn’t the case for many gay men and women. I support them, if their love is real.
I will end this podcast episode here folks and talk more about homosexuality in the next podcast episode. Thank you for tuning in to the Nobel Soul podcast. I look forward to sharing more of my views on Christianity and Spirituality in upcoming episodes.
Stay Nobel!
Heidi Nobel
