The song that made me realize I couldn't let D go
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hello and welcome back to the curiosity chronicles i am your host taylor cecilia
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brooke and with me today i am super super excited to have a very special guest my
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very very wonderful sexy hot amazing fiancee d say hi d hey how's it going guys
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I wanted to bring him on here today because I thought it would be really fun for
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you guys to see kind of how just how our relationship flows.
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Plus, he's had a really interesting life and I am always curious to learn more about him.
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So first, I want you to kind of like introduce yourself.
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I know everybody hates it when people say, tell me about yourself.
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But,
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you know,
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for people who don't read my Substack at all and only listen to the podcast,
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they probably have no idea who you are.
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All right.
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Well, my name is Devin, 30 years old.
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I am a father.
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To Iz, you're Iz's dad.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Iz is my kid.
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Yep.
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And, shoot, I mean, I'm a Marine Corps veteran.
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What'd you do in the Marine Corps?
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Oh, I was supply logistics for nine years.
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You did way more than that.
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Yes.
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That's like just the tip of the iceberg of what you did.
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Yeah.
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Nine years, three different units.
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First unit was 2nd Tank Battalion, Camp Lejeune, North Carolina.
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Second unit was VMU-1 in Yuma, Arizona, a little bit in 29 Palms.
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And then third unit was INI, being an inspector instructor at Evansburg PA Truck Company.
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And somehow we never crossed paths because you were in that whole time.
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Because you got out in... 2021.
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Yeah.
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So you just never crossed your path.
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Nope.
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That's super crazy.
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So you're in the Marine Corps.
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You're a dad.
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And now what do you do?
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Now I'm one of the managers over at Shields.
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That's opening up in Tulsa.
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No one knew that I lived in Tulsa.
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No.
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Well, no one still knew.
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They just knew I worked in Tulsa.
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Yeah, well, actually, it's not a big deal.
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I don't give a shit.
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You look at my name, you can see everything on me.
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Okay.
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Like,
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I'm kind of just,
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at this point,
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the minute I put my book out there,
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it's going to have your last name on it.
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Yeah.
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So it's like, the minute I put the book out there, everybody's going to know everything about me.
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So it's like, you know, and Joey didn't care about having his name out there.
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Yeah, I'm not too worried about it.
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But so, yes, you work at Shields.
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We live in Tulsa, unfortunately.
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It's not all bad, but it's definitely not sunshine and rainbows.
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And we would definitely like to be living somewhere else.
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Agreed.
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So, you know.
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It is what it is.
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We're both kind of, well, I'm stuck here.
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He's not necessarily stuck here.
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I'm stuck here.
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I'm stuck here because you're stuck here.
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Aw, you're so sweet.
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That's just the truth of it.
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Yeah, we're stuck here for four years.
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No, 13 more years.
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Holy shit, my kid got older.
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I forgot about that.
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Oh, yes, this is an episode featured...
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With trees, we are having trees on here.
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I don't know how Substack is with the legalities of all of that.
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We are in a legal state, but I know I need to be careful because, you know, people are stupid.
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So if you hear that coughing, any of that, that's what's happening over here.
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We thought it would be fun for you guys to see us, like, honestly, properly in our truest forms.
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Although I think our truest forms is probably when we're tripping on mushrooms.
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Yeah, probably.
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Fun fact, that's when he told me he loved me.
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Yes.
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His eyes literally looked like an anime character.
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They were so huge.
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He was like, I could literally see in his eyes.
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He was like, oh, fuck.
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Did I really just say that?
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Because I wasn't divorced yet.
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We were not going to have a relationship.
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And we definitely had started to develop feelings.
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Yeah, we were telling each other we loved each other, just not using those specific words.
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Yeah, what did we say?
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You mean so much to me.
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You mean a lot to me.
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What was the other one?
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You make me happy.
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Oh, yes.
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You make me happy.
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Oh, you make me so happy.
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Yeah, which is not much different than I love you so much.
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So fucking much.
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Correct.
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We just kept following that line.
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But yeah, so our two, our two on themselves.
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Now I will say that there's probably going to be a lot of digressions and I'm going
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to try to be the best fiance and podcast host possible and not interrupt you too
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many times when you're talking.
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Oh, it's just giving them a view into the real world.
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I just stuck my tongue out.
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They interrupted me.
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I was about to say the same thing.
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literally did what you said i do oh my god it's like you know me just a bit just a
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bit yeah okay so you work at shields you're in the marine corps you have a daughter
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yes i mean technically you have two more now but i have a daughter and a daughter
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and a daughter and a daughter yeah
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And then we have our boys.
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We have the two boys.
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And Zussi is yours and Shepi is mine.
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And now they're all yours.
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I was going to say, they're both kind of mine now.
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Yeah, fucking Shep just like straight up was like, oh, I don't know who you are anymore.
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And just fell in love with Daddy.
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It was ridiculous.
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He is what Daddy's for.
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He really is.
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He doesn't even come close to smiling at me like the way he smiles at you.
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I know.
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And when I come home, he gets so excited.
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I literally was talking to my therapist about that,
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how like watching them really helps put in perspective like things that I can be
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grateful for because they're so fucking thankful that you're just home petting them.
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I know.
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You should be more happy when I come home and pet you.
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You should know that I am.
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There's so many things I can't say right now.
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Got to keep it semi.
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Not.
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Well, no, it's marked as 18 plus.
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Yeah, so if you're under 18, fuck off.
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Yeah, it's probably not a good idea for you to listen to this one.
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But anyway, what were we talking about?
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We were talking about... Okay, so we have the Dodgers.
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Yes.
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We have the boys.
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Yes.
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There you go, the two dogs.
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Yes.
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And... They're near 200 pounds of dog.
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Yeah, for real.
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That like to lay on top of us.
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Yes.
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Yeah.
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And get more ankles.
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Yes.
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I can walk those, too, by myself.
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Well, yeah.
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They're well-behaved boys.
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Yes.
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Shep wasn't always well-behaved on a leash.
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No.
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He's doing a lot better all around.
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Oh, yeah.
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Motherfucker doesn't jump fences anymore.
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I'm better than I was.
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I know, for real.
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You're probably going to start fucking barking.
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Okay, so many think that it was Kara Allwell that introduced me to subject, but it wasn't.
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It was actually you.
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Yeah, I mean, it wasn't like a super detailed introduction.
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It was just you were talking about writing.
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And so it reminded me of the Joe Rogan podcast where the founder of Substack was on
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there and talking about how he was really trying to make a platform for writers.
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Yeah, that was the interview with Chris Best, I believe.
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Yeah.
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Cause I don't know if he's interviewed Hamish or not.
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Um,
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I don't know,
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but that was actually the podcast that made me want to start my podcast like that
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because I really enjoyed the way they talked with each other,
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but he also brought up Chris brought up,
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he's like,
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no one really does this.
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That was in their podcast.
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So I thought that was, that's kind of what sparked this idea for all of this, but, okay.
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Um,
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So, yeah, it was you.
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But why did you think it would be a good platform for me?
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Oh, I mean, it just seems like they actually care about the writers more than just trying to make money.
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Now, I mean, it's a business still, so I'm sure, you know, there is the business aspect of it.
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But, I mean, it really seems like they care about the writers.
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They're wanting to give people a platform to express themselves.
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It seems pretty cool.
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So I brought it up.
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Well, I appreciate it because it has been a huge awakening for me.
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Just all the doors that have started opening because of it.
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I feel like that's just the link itself.
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theme with my life with you.
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All these doors just keep opening up, and it's like, oh, because I'm finally with the right person.
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Yeah, I'm just passing along information.
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You're the one putting in the work.
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Yeah, but you're still passing it along.
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Of course.
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You're still listening to what I'm saying.
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Always.
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Yeah.
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It's not always like that for other people.
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Nah.
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Or with other people.
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Oh, I can't speak for them.
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No.
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I just try to do what I can.
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You do.
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You definitely do.
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But you're divorced.
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I am divorced.
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Yes.
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So we both are.
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Correct.
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And we both said we wouldn't ever get married again.
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Also correct.
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I tried.
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Yes.
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Yes, you did.
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Ooh.
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You should tell them how you proposed to me and why you chose Lynn.
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Okay.
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May is a big deal for us.
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It's a big month for us for some reason.
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Yeah.
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What's that?
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I don't even know where to start.
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I mean, because I had planned it out quite a while ago.
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Really?
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Oh, yeah.
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I asked Isabella and Lucy both ahead of time.
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You asked Lucy?
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And she kept a secret?
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Yeah.
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Oh, yeah.
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She is Emma.
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I'm so proud of her.
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Yeah, that one I was worried about.
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Because I don't like... You know... I think I just said it was a surprise, though.
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I didn't say, like, don't tell your mom.
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I said it was a surprise.
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Yeah, and she's a really... She really...
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Surprises are a big fucking deal to her.
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Yeah, she loves them.
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I know.
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And it was.
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It was a surprise.
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It was a surprise.
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I was so not expecting it.
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Okay.
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But anywho, so, yeah, talked to them, contemplated talking to your father.
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Still kind of kicking myself that we didn't.
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I didn't know about the Kansas cabin.
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I would have freaking invited him out there or something.
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That would have...
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But, so, anywhoos.
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So, we had our date.
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You're going to have to remember.
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The date we went paintballing.
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Yes.
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The date we went paintballing.
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Yeah, we went and, because it was technically my date.
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It was my date to plan.
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Yep.
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So, we went and got tacos.
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Yeah, which were amazing.
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They were amazing.
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And then we went and paintballed, and I got fucking hammered on margaritas.
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And hammered by paintballs.
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By paintballs, yeah.
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Yeah.
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black and blue everywhere for a while made me regret you taking me paintballing
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well i mean you know i knew that would happen i just sometimes it's hard for people
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to grasp the concept of what happens when i make those choices yeah it was a little
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crazy but but we went paintballing we had uh it was hot dogs and stuff right hot
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dogs and hammers but i don't
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I didn't eat anything.
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Did you eat anything?
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I can't remember if I ate anything.
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I don't feel like you ate anything because you got food later, way later that night.
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Yeah.
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So, but you definitely partook in the margaritas.
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Oh, yes.
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Yes.
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I think three.
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Three.
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And they were not like.
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They were not bullcrap margaritas.
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No.
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No.
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They were.
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Fucking strong.
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Why did I not say bullshit, but then I said fuck?
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Can't help you with that one, hon.
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Yeah.
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You say fuck a lot on your podcast.
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Oh, I know.
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What?
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You say fuck a lot, so it's okay if I say it.
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Of fucking course.
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Okay.
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Anyways.
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So, yeah, paintballing, margaritas.
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Then I was worried that you were too drunk to propose to.
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So what did you do?
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I suggested we go get french fries because you love french fries.
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And they do what?
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Sober you up.
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And he knew that.
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Like...
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It's just, like, he knew that about me.
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And how many times have we gotten, like, drunk drunk together?
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Not very many.
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No, just a couple.
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Yeah, and you still remember that.
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You still knew that.
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Yes, because I tried to pay attention to you.
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I appreciate it.
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Of course.
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Okay, so we got French fries.
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Yes.
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Over strategically by where we were going.
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But we had to come home first.
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Because we had to give back Bauer.
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That was the first time Bauer stayed with us.
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Yes, so we had to give back a dollar bill.
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Yeah.
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And then we went to get french fries.
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Right?
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Or was french fries?
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Yeah, it was after because we had the french fries when we got to the park.
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Yes, yeah, we did.
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That's right.
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It was a park on a river.
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Yes, there's a beautiful river walk.
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And it was a perfect little setting.
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Yeah.
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It really was.
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It was so nice that night.
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It was, like, the sky was dark, dark.
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The moon was so bright.
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Yeah.
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And there weren't very many lights on either.
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Nope.
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There were just a few lights, just enough to where you could really see.
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And we walked down there.
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There was a snake.
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There was a snake.
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I forgot about the snake.
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Yeah, there was a snake.
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I kind of chased it off.
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You did?
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Yeah.
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And then somehow I got tangled in.
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What was that?
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Fishing line.
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Yeah, you got tangled in that clear little fishing line.
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I still don't know how it happened because I obviously never saw it.
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Not that that's saying much because I'm, you know, night blind and I was definitely still drunk.
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And so I got down on a knee to, you know, help you get out of the fishing line.
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And then I pulled out a ring.
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Yeah.
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And I was not expecting that.
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And I said what, which made you nervous.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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I completely forgot everything I was going to say.
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Yeah.
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i think i just basically said i love you so fucking much will you marry me probably
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i don't know i was so like my brain wasn't processing anything you could have said
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a thousand things and i probably still wouldn't have processed any of it yeah
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because i was just so like fucking over the moon that that this was actually
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happening
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Yeah, I was going to do a whole thing.
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You make me feel like the luckiest man in the world.
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I know you couldn't do this life without you.
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You make me whole.
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I feel like we've gone through this life before and another life.
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It was a whole little thing in my head.
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And as soon as I got down on one knee and I realized that that was the moment I was
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going to do it,
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my heart was beating so fast.
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It did not help that I said, shut up.
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Yeah, that's what you said.
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Yeah.
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And I was like, oh, that just threw everything off too.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, and I was 100% doing like a clueless shut up, like Valley Grill 101 right there.
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Yeah.
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But I was so drunk that everything was just like.
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Yeah, you get very California girl when you're drunk.
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I know, or when I'm super high.
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Yeah, but only like certain ways.
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Oh, interesting.
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Like, yeah, it's more like, I don't, yeah, different consumptions.
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You have kind of different reactions.
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Oh, do tell.
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I don't know how detailed I can go on here.
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As detailed as you are.
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Well, you said they're weird about that.
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I don't know if they're... Oh.
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Just use... So, like, when you're using the water pipe... Uh-huh.
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It is very different than when you do the dabs versus when we chain smoke joints.
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Yeah.
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Or just hit the pen a bunch.
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Yeah.
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Like, your reactions are very different.
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So, what...
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Pen gets you air-heady.
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And then joints, you wanted to either talk a ton or eat a ton.
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I know.
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I always want to eat a ton.
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We literally had to make a rule that he has to help me enforce.
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You literally did it last night.
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Yeah, I didn't feel good about it.
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No, and it's so... It was one of those moments... I feel like a pet from my fiancé.
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No, it was... I'm telling you not to eat.
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No, that's because you are... You're a good fiancé.
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That's what I needed because I didn't need any food.
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I did need the pickle juice, which was literally what I needed.
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It was so perfect.
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But...
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I didn't actually need any food.
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I wasn't actually hungry.
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But...
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And you remembered and you also remembered even when I say no or say I want it anyway,
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you have to,
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like,
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stand strong because that's one of the things we've been trying to work on with
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each other,
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just,
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like,
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holding each other accountable because that's what real partners do.
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Right.
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We make...
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Yeah, we make a lot of, you know, decisions while we're smoking.
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And then when we're sober, we do not enforce them, even when sometimes we should.
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Yeah.
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We've been doing a lot better with that.
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Oh, for sure.
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It's still challenging with the whole food thing.
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The food thing is the most challenging thing,
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and it has been the most challenging thing probably for most of my adult life.
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Right.
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Like... Just knowing your history and everything, it makes it really...
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It feels like a lot of weight on my shoulders when I tell you, like, don't eat.
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Because I don't want you to, like, ever think that it's anything coming from me.
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It's coming because you told me.
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Yeah.
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Okay.
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So what's really interesting is all of a sudden it was,
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like,
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I obviously rewired this,
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which is incredible.
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But, like, you...
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doing things that make me a better person, make me the person that I want to be, you know?
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Like, you're holding me accountable because I want to be held accountable to who future Taylor is.
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Like, the person she wants to be has to do those things to get to be that person.
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And I don't get there by self-sabotaging myself,
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which is literally just what I'm doing with all of those other things.
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And drinking...
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Like, tonight, I'm going to get pounded and we're done.
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We're done.
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Yeah, I think you want to get high one last time and then done.
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I did quit for a month, though.
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Correct.
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No, I was just using that as an example because that's, like, a very common thing.
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Yeah, I know.
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No, you in no way are addicted to alcohol.
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No, I actually, I was thinking about it.
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I think it has to do with the carbonation.
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Well, that's not good.
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Go get a fuzzy water.
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Yeah, I know.
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I think it's because it's different than the fuzzy water and it's different from soda.
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I don't know.
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I think you like the effects of alcohol, too.
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I mean, if we're being real.
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It's probably because I'm not so afraid of throwing up anymore.
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Yeah, and that allows you to enjoy alcohol more.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, I'm just with both of your parents drinking so much.
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That's the only thing that gets me...
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Yeah,
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well,
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exactly,
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which is why I'm like,
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okay,
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I don't want to continually...
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Plus,
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didn't you get that lemonade for me?
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I did, but you said you weren't going to drink it.
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Not last night.
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Maybe I'll drink it in the future.
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Okay, that's fine, too.
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Then I won't.
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But anyway, what I was saying is, wow, huge digression.
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Yeah.
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What I was saying is you hold me accountable.
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And I have never before had a partner that truly holds me accountable that isn't my female best friends.
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And even then, like, you know, the main one.
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so like she does but um I've never had the ability to be okay being held
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accountable so that's the other aspect like it doesn't feel like a personal attack
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because you're literally doing what I asked you to do
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Yeah, we talked about it ahead of time.
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Exactly.
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And it's like, I know he's not doing it because you are wanting me to feel a certain way.
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You're only doing it because that's literally what I told you to do.
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Yeah.
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So that was really cool just to start realizing a lot of that stuff.
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Like the other night when I don't know what I did.
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I did something.
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And you're like, that wasn't cool.
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I was like, oh, you're right.
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I'll do that again.
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I'm sorry.
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And that was that.
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Yeah.
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And I said, thank you for pointing that out.
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Which, a year ago, that would not have been the case.
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No.
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For me either, though.
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Like, I think we're both getting better at communicating.
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Ugh.
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And by doing that, it prevents a lot of other drama and bullshit.
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Like the fucking butter incident?
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What was the butter incident?
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You remember we had a whole fucking like multi-day fight over... Not a fight.
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It was just like... It was a fight over how much better I put on the Pop-Tart.
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It was not a fight because I was not aware.
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Yeah, that's me.
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I was not aware I did anything wrong.
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So... I didn't know you called it a fight in your head even.
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Yeah.
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I mean, I was coming at you with a fist in my head, so... Right, I was just unaware of what I did wrong.
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Yeah, and you didn't understand why I was so pissy.
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Yeah.
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I was just having a war.
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Until this day, until right now, I didn't know it was multi-day.
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Yeah, that sounds about right.
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I think... I said something recently that, like, I thought I couldn't pretend...
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And it's not that I couldn't pretend.
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It's just that I spent most of my life living a pretend life in my head.
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Because I was so wrapped up in everything internally.
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And... I could literally make myself believe anything.
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That's crazy.
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Yeah.
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I think almost literally.
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Probably.
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Probably.
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So, like, having...
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So you would just substitute reality with whatever you made up in your head?
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Yeah.
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Oh.
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It wasn't always consciously.
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Oh.
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Yeah, that's the worst part.
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No, I'm very aware of it now.
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Because, like...
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My brain every now and then still wants to go there.
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But now I know.
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So I'm like, no, we're not going to do that.
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Yeah, you like stop yourself from like creating a false reality sort of thing.
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Yeah, which just causes me to go insanely internal.
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Because it's not a healthy false reality.
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Yeah.
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It's a very dysfunctional false reality.
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That's so interesting.
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Yeah.
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There's so many things where...
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I thought back on them and I was like,
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oh,
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they definitely were not doing what I thought they were doing.
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Oh, it's the thing where you jump to conclusions, but you jump to the wrong conclusions.
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Or I feel personally... I thought they were personally attacking me.
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That's a huge one.
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Yeah, all of that kind of stuff.
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That's something we've run into a lot.
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Oh, yeah.
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Like,
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it's...
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Like,
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this is recent that I'm finally,
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like,
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really...
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Not the false reality stuff,
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but,
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like...
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The jump into the...
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Like,
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they're attacking me versus they're just...
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Exactly.
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Because that's a multi-faceted trigger right there.
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Like, there's, like, multiple reasons why I do that.
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Right.
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It's so...
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But, yeah, it's really interesting that I am capable of doing that.
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I now understand what my grandpa meant when he said that I have a very vibrant imagination.
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Oh, it wasn't the compliment like he thought it was.
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I think he meant it both ways because he did find the minds of sociopaths and psychopaths
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fascinating and he worked with schizophrenia patients and bipolar patients so where
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do you fit in there no OCD ah yeah with an overactive imagination because I'm a
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girl and that's apparently what girls do yeah I mean you're not quite the typical
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woman though ooh how so
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That sounds so interesting.
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I mean, I think just generally, like, you're a lot more outgoing and adventurous and open.
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You don't seem to have a very closed-off mindset, except for when you're in certain moods.
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You get into these stubborn little moods where...
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Nothing no one says, nothing anyone says will change your mind.
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But that's okay, because I think we all have that.
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Oh, for sure.
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I know I do that when I shut everything off.
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Oh, yeah, you definitely have a lot of those.
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Yeah.
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But that's okay.
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We've also learned that, like,
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I think we've learned pretty well that there's a lot of topics,
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not a lot of topics,
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but there's a few key things that we don't quite see eye to eye on,
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but that's okay.
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We don't have to, it's nothing like.
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Well,
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yeah,
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because I think it's like anything else,
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you know,
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like a little bit of difference is a good thing.
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Yeah, for sure.
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You know, just a jelly and jelly sandwich.
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At least they should.
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Peanut butter and jelly is where it's at.
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Lou will eat a jelly sandwich.
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I'm pretty sure I also could give her a mayonnaise sandwich.
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She is 100% my kid.
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She didn't like the sandwich I packed the other day at her lunch,
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but she licked all the mayonnaise off the bread.
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It is a ketchup sandwich, so.
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I love that.
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Yeah.
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I think I knew that, because that's why she gets the hot dog bun, so she can do it.
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They both did the corn dog thing.
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Yeah.
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That's so crazy.
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So weird.
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What's the purpose?
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I don't know.
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They're so funny.
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And they're so funny when they're like,
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conspiring together i know i love watching them like work together i know i can't
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wait to watch them get older together it's gonna be so much fun yeah when and for
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uh and for a time yes we are there is gonna be so much attitude in this house yeah
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there already is i know i know it's already a lot
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Like, every single thing Lou does right now comes with a sigh.
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I know.
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I'm like, what the fuck?
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And she death looks me so good sometimes.
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Oh, yeah.
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She definitely got that one from me, too.
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I know.
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She gives me just the meanest, serious little looks.
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And I'm like,
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it's almost hilarious because it's like,
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it's so mean,
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but it's attached to such a little person.
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I'm like, oh, no, you're going to beat me up.
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I have.
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There's a few pictures of her when she was,
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like,
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really little and then,
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like,
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around 18 months and two and a half of her making that face.
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Yeah.
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She's been able to make that mean mug from day one.
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I wonder who she gets that from.
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Me.
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And do you know who I get it from?
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Your mom?
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Yeah.
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Oh.
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Well, luckily I don't think they're listening, so... No.
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I mean, but she already knows I get my RBF from her.
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Yeah, she has it rough.
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Oh, she knows.
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She's very aware.
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I think she gave me a warning one time about it.
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Really?
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Yeah, I think she said something like, I know I look grumpy, but I'm not always grumpy or something.
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I look angry, but I'm not always angry.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Her's...
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I don't know if hers is worse than mine.
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Oh, yeah.
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Oh, okay.
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Well, that's good to know.
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I think that makes me feel a little bit better.
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Oh, good.
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So we are 33 minutes in.
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Yes, we are.
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How long are your podcasts normally?
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Your videos are pretty short.
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No.
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So when I have people on, they've all been like...
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around the first one was 40 minutes because we got cut off by zoom oh no yeah it
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was super shitty i'm gonna have megan back on because i have some workarounds now
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um and then yeah so like 40 minutes to an hour okay so it's up to you though oh
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i'll go as long as you want i'm feeling great right now and i'm just rambling
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that's what she said
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Really?
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I mean, you do make me ramble sometimes.
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Okay.
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Sometimes you do.
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Yeah, you speak other languages sometimes.
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Wait, was that English?
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I would just keep going.
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Yeah.
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Wait, do I really?
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Do you think all the things that you yell out are words?
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Yeah.
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Really?
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I mean, unless I'm just yelling.
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Because sometimes I'm just yelling.
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Okay, yeah.
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I'm probably talking about those sounds.
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Okay.
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You make different sounds.
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Like, it's not English.
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Yeah, it's been compared to Chewbacca before.
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Ew.
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I know.
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It's not like Chewbacca at all.
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No?
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No.
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What?
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That's good.
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What kind of Chewbacca?
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At least not with me.
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That's good.
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That's very good.
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Sometimes I feel like I sound like a cow.
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No.
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That's good.
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Yeah.
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I mean, an injured cat maybe, but not... Somehow that's so much better.
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Oh, I know.
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It's just a joke.
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Interesting.
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I mean,
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I knew,
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I will say that,
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like,
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you evoke things from me that have never been evoked in my entire life.
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Ever.
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So.
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Yeah, that's right.
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I love you so much.
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I love you.
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Okay.
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So, there's two ways we could go with this next.
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Okay.
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We could go more on the relationship-y side, or we could go more on, like,
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the conspiracy theories you believe side.
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Oh, God.
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Or, like, the future we want to build.
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Or I can just ask you 20 questions.
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Just ask me questions.
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I think that'll probably get... Like, what is the purpose?
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Like, what's your goal with this podcast?
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To get to know people more, to learn more things, to have a space for people to...
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I meant this one specifically.
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Oh.
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Sorry, I don't think we actually went over that.
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Because I said it doesn't really, like, I just chat.
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Like, there's never any, like, real agenda.
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I kind of just let things.
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Right, I understand that.
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Like, that's, like, how it goes during the podcast.
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Like, this has been literally us chilling.
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Yeah, for sure.
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In bed.
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Yeah, we're literally in bed.
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We are sitting up.
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Yes.
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I'm sitting up more now.
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You are.
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But, like, was the goal to get them to know me?
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Was it to talk about our relationship?
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Yes and no.
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It was more, like, I'm open to all of that.
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I just didn't know how comfortable and how much.
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And, like, I don't want to, like,
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four people out of their mind by us, like, being mushy-gushy over each other.
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Well, here, just ask me 20 questions, and I'll do my best to answer them.
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Okay.
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And then, have you answered a bunch of questions about yourself on here?
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I have not.
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Okay, so ask away, and I will ask away.
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Oh, I'm so excited about this.
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Okay.
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Given that you're colorblind, how does color impact the way you see life?
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So that's a hard one because I've only known how I see things.
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Yeah.
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So to me,
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I see all the colors that are there because I don't know,
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like,
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I don't think I could see differently,
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you know,
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like,
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like what green is to me,
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it's probably not green to you,
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but that's all I've ever known.
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Yeah.
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That is green.
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Does it, is it still as moving?
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So like if someone's looking at something that's very like colorful or the colors like,
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like in a painting,
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is it the same for you?
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I think it is to some extent.
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Because, again, bright colors, I believe, are still bright colors to me.
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It's just my max brightness, maybe it's lower than yours.
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Probably, yeah.
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But to me, when I see something that's crazy colorful or something, it's still...
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colorful to me because that's all i've ever done yeah okay maybe i don't see all
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the shades or all you know quite the same level of detail yeah like the difference
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between sunshine yellow and butter yellow right a lot of those especially if
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they're close to each other they all kind of mesh together um
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But I can still see, you know, the yellow.
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Or like when I see a sunset, it still looks very bright and vibrant and colorful.
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Okay, that's what I was wondering.
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It's probably just...
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different yeah like i've never quite seen the sunset that has evoked crazy emotions
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so maybe there's something there but you know and they have those they have those
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glasses right right and i think the glasses you have to get like the lenses that
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are for your specific version of color blindness oh i'm sure and there's a few
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others
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I know I'm red-green,
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and I think it was like blue-yellow or purple-yellow,
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but I would have to do their little quiz.
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Because what do you see purple as?
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I believe it's,
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again,
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it's purple to me,
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but,
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I mean,
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you've seen it when I get,
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like,
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pink and purple confused.
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That's true, yeah.
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Like.
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Yes.
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So, to me, I guess.
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Reds are really hard for you.
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Yeah, reds and, like, red green is, I think, the main, the main.
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Yeah, which is so interesting because you wear a lot of green shirts, but they look fantastic on you.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Is that why you wear a lot of green shirts?
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I think it's just habit from the military.
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Oh, yeah.
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Okay.
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That makes sense.
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It's kind of the same color as my undershirts were, so I just feel comfortable wearing them.
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Yeah, that makes sense.
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That makes sense.
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Those shirts are so soft.
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Yeah, I am a creature of habit.
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I mean, I'm the same way.
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I wear the same thing.
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Yeah.
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If I'm not leaving the house, if I can get away with wearing a dress, I will.
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Mm-hmm.
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You know?
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That is true.
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Like, that was my preferred clothing option.
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Yeah, I'd never wear dress.
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Mm-hmm.
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I just hate pants so much.
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Unless they're workout pants.
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And even then, like the workout leggings, I'm super picky on.
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Like you are with your shorts.
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Like your Under Armour shorts.
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Oh, yeah.
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I'm super picky about pants.
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Because like the waistbands.
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Oh, I know.
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That's why half of them don't have waistbands.
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Those are my pajama pants, which is almost worse.
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Except for I really wish I could get like 20 more pairs of those.
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orangey pinkish victoria's secret ones that i have oh yeah if i could get like 10
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pairs of those and that's all i had it would be perfect literally perfect no i like
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your little button up with the shorts oh yeah those are good too i've got a lot of
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those now i know they're magical i was telling katie about that because god damn it
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okay she's probably fine with it
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And this is what happens when we just start talking about thinking.
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Yeah, exactly.
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Okay, so that's the colorblindness.
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Question number two.
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It's your turn to ask me a question.
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Ooh, that's true.
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Okay, so what has been your favorite part about being on Substack?
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Oh, just the fucking people I've met.
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Like, 100%.
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I have so many friends now.
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I literally... There's this one woman who literally feels...
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so motherly to me.
(00:43:08):
Yeah.
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In such a good and healthy and positive way.
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And I'm so excited to interview her next week.
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Oh, that's awesome.
(00:43:16):
Yeah.
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But I just met some really, like, really fucking cool people.
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And, like, Megan, that's how I met Megan.
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And I swear we are related somehow.
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Like, somehow.
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It's crazy.
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Because we are so similar.
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Yeah.
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She literally called me her favorite.
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Called me her favorite.
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I'm her favorite domestic hoe.
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Because she had this whole thing about cauliflower and how she hates cutting it
(00:43:50):
because all the things go everywhere.
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And I was like, I should have said professional domestic hoe.
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But I said domestic hoe popping in.
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Just cut off the stem and then you break it.
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then it doesn't make a mess.
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And she was like, how, how have I never thought about that?
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I'm totally going to try that.
(00:44:12):
But yeah, it's just really cool.
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The people, the people are really, it's amazing.
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That's awesome.
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I am so elevated right now.
(00:44:22):
Same.
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Okay.
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It's my turn, right?
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Yes.
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I don't think we're going to get to 20.
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No, probably not.
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That's okay.
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We can talk as long as we want.
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I can break it up into two episodes if we want to.
(00:44:36):
Okay.
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Yeah.
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It's probably going to be until I get hungry.
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I'm cool with whatever.
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Cuckoo.
(00:44:47):
All right, question number two.
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Okay, question number two.
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What has been your least favorite date we've been on?
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Oh, I think I know the answer to this one.
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That's a tough one.
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That's a really tough one, actually.
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What did you think it was?
(00:45:13):
The fucking night where I failed to plan basically anything and the whole date fell apart.
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I almost don't count.
(00:45:23):
We just ended up at Nola's.
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Yeah.
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Which, by the way, if you're ever in Tulsa, you have to go to Nola's.
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It's 100% one of the best restaurants I've ever eaten at.
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And I've eaten at a lot of restaurants around the United States, Canada, and London.
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Yeah, I mean, Nola's one of the top restaurants for sure.
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Yeah, you've eaten at a lot of places too.
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Yeah, I mean, I've eaten all along the East Coast and a little bit West Coast.
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Like all the Southern West Coast.
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Yeah.
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Like, you got the real good Mexican food.
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Oh, yeah.
(00:45:58):
You had really good Mexican.
(00:46:00):
Oh, I bet.
(00:46:00):
I bet the tortillas were on fire.
(00:46:02):
Oh, yeah.
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And then the meat.
(00:46:05):
Oh, my God.
(00:46:06):
Oh, yeah.
(00:46:07):
And then the homemade sauces.
(00:46:09):
Like, they didn't make it anymore.
(00:46:11):
Yeah.
(00:46:12):
It was... I miss... There was this burrito place.
(00:46:18):
Literally, my mom contemplated...
(00:46:21):
sending my sister with a, like a dry ice cooler or something.
(00:46:24):
So she could bring back these burritos.
(00:46:26):
They're that good.
(00:46:27):
Oh yeah.
(00:46:28):
Yeah.
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They're, they're just, oh my God.
(00:46:31):
question I didn't I don't think you know I asked you a question about what is your
(00:46:34):
least favorite date and you said oh it didn't count you didn't really count yeah I
(00:46:38):
don't really count that necessarily as like our dates because our dates are a lot
(00:46:42):
more planned out and you know well it was supposed to be because we did end up
(00:46:46):
going to the shooting range yes just a different day yes um so I would say least
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favorite
(00:46:59):
That's a hard one.
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I really enjoyed our date.
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I know.
(00:47:11):
Me too.
(00:47:16):
The... Oh, no.
(00:47:18):
This one's easy.
(00:47:20):
It was the... OKC... Oh, yes!
(00:47:25):
It was the OKC...
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The concert.
(00:47:29):
The concert.
(00:47:30):
The fucking concert.
(00:47:31):
Oh my god.
(00:47:32):
That was awful.
(00:47:33):
The whole thing.
(00:47:34):
It was like, what, like a hundred degrees that day?
(00:47:37):
It was so hot.
(00:47:40):
And humid.
(00:47:40):
And humid.
(00:47:41):
I chose to wear a skirt.
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We were sitting on a lawn.
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We didn't have chairs.
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We did not prepare nearly enough.
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No.
(00:47:52):
The music was not great.
(00:47:54):
No, it was because I bought the wrong tickets to the wrong concert, which is so frustrating.
(00:48:00):
That's totally a move you do, though.
(00:48:02):
Literally.
(00:48:03):
That's how I got locked out of the house the other day.
(00:48:07):
Like you said, spacey.
(00:48:09):
It happens when I'm sober, too.
(00:48:13):
It's very frustrating.
(00:48:15):
yeah so that i mean the ice cream almost salvaged it almost but it's still like we
(00:48:22):
let the concert like yeah if that if that it was like we didn't even stay for young
(00:48:30):
and the giant like because i didn't want to i was like i'm so hot this is not worth
(00:48:35):
it and like i got to hear talk perform the one song that i wanted to hear
(00:48:42):
And he's not best life.
(00:48:45):
I'm sorry if he somehow ever hears this.
(00:48:49):
He was probably going to get better because he's new.
(00:48:53):
And it was literally 100 fucking degrees outside.
(00:48:55):
It was so hot.
(00:48:58):
They were playing in the amphitheater.
(00:49:02):
Yeah, that was definitely the worst day.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
(00:49:06):
Okay, your turn.
(00:49:07):
Okay.
(00:49:08):
Hmm.
(00:49:12):
Which direction do we want to go?
(00:49:15):
What was your most favorite date?
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You stole my next question.
(00:49:21):
My most favorite date.
(00:49:22):
Probably the one where we got engaged, to be honest.
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Okay, that's a good one.
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Yeah, that's fair.
(00:49:29):
Yeah.
(00:49:30):
That was a good date, though.
(00:49:31):
It really was.
(00:49:32):
I had a lot of fun.
(00:49:33):
I think the most funnest, though.
(00:49:36):
The most funnest?
(00:49:37):
Yeah, the most funnest.
(00:49:39):
God.
(00:49:40):
God.
(00:49:47):
We've had some really, really fun dates.
(00:49:51):
I know.
(00:49:53):
Like, we've gone to the fucking comedy club and saw A.J.
(00:49:57):
Wilkerson.
(00:49:58):
I know, that one was pretty sick.
(00:50:01):
We... The go-karting?
(00:50:03):
The go-karting.
(00:50:05):
Oh, that might be... That might be, like...
(00:50:09):
The axe throwing was up there for me, too.
(00:50:12):
I know.
(00:50:12):
You definitely enjoyed that more than I did.
(00:50:18):
But I enjoyed how much you were enjoying it.
(00:50:21):
And it was still a lot of fun.
(00:50:24):
And it was like... I just leaned into being shitty.
(00:50:29):
Which works for me.
(00:50:31):
I kind of like that gig sometimes.
(00:50:32):
I think...
(00:50:33):
You did not lean into it because you got super grumpy because you weren't very good.
(00:50:38):
Did I?
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Yeah.
(00:50:40):
That's on track, yeah.
(00:50:41):
Yeah, you're super competitive.
(00:50:43):
It's so frustrating because I suck at a lot of stuff.
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Only, like, physical things.
(00:50:49):
Yeah, which is frustrating when your partner is good at physical things.
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Like...
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Yeah.
(00:51:00):
It's so frustrating.
(00:51:01):
Kind of just naturally good at it.
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I know.
(00:51:04):
That's how I feel about the other stuff.
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I'm naturally good at that.
(00:51:07):
The physical stuff, I am not, which is interesting because my dad is, but, oh, my mom's not.
(00:51:16):
Yeah.
(00:51:18):
I feel like you take after her quite a bit.
(00:51:20):
Yeah.
(00:51:22):
I did get my dad's hair, though, which is cool.
(00:51:25):
That's where I get the curly hair from.
(00:51:26):
Oh, that's cool.
(00:51:27):
Yeah.
(00:51:28):
My grandma's hair was so curly.
(00:51:30):
Okay, so I answered your question, right?
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You did not.
(00:51:37):
You said the go-karting might be it, though.
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Well, no, I said, oh, the most funnest, yeah.
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The most funnest.
(00:51:51):
Yeah, probably the go-karting.
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Okay.
(00:51:56):
i really want to go somewhere where we can go faster or have less people maybe yeah
(00:52:05):
we will definitely look into once the weather cools down a bit oh for sure yeah
(00:52:11):
would not be i literally like got a sunburn i think
(00:52:16):
When we were out there when it was hot that one time with all of your coworkers.
(00:52:20):
And it wasn't even that hot.
(00:52:21):
I know, exactly.
(00:52:22):
But they're just, like, sun suckers.
(00:52:27):
They really should put solar panels on those things.
(00:52:30):
Yeah.
(00:52:32):
I'm really surprised they haven't figured out how to make,
(00:52:34):
like,
(00:52:34):
paint that has,
(00:52:36):
like...
(00:52:37):
Solar panels in it?
(00:52:39):
Yeah, like, flecks.
(00:52:42):
I don't really figure out how to put fucking glitter in paint.
(00:52:45):
They put it in house paint now.
(00:52:47):
Glitter doesn't have any technology in it.
(00:52:49):
I know, but I think it's going to get there.
(00:52:55):
Yeah.
(00:52:56):
Roll on solar panels.
(00:52:58):
Maybe one day it will be a thing.
(00:53:00):
That would be so fucking cool.
(00:53:02):
We're officially at stone.
(00:53:06):
Yeah, we are.
(00:53:08):
I feel a little bit like Rick and Morty.
(00:53:10):
God, that would be a fun podcast.
(00:53:13):
Rick and Morty podcast.
(00:53:14):
Yeah.
(00:53:15):
Or even just getting to talk to the guys who do the voices of them.
(00:53:19):
I'm pretty sure it was, like, a pedophile.
(00:53:24):
No!
(00:53:25):
Yeah, I think that was the whole thing.
(00:53:28):
Lame!
(00:53:28):
Why are all the cool people pedos?
(00:53:30):
I don't know.
(00:53:32):
Because, like, that's what What's-His-Face was from... What's-His-Face.
(00:53:37):
Again, all the cool people are pedos, so you gotta be a little more specific.
(00:53:41):
Yeah.
(00:53:43):
I mean, that was Bill Cosby.
(00:53:44):
You forgot Bill Cosby?
(00:53:47):
No, I didn't forget about him.
(00:53:49):
How can you forget about him?
(00:53:50):
He tried to defend himself.
(00:53:53):
Very poorly.
(00:53:54):
I just don't know his name.
(00:53:57):
The guy from the ranch in that 70s show.
(00:54:00):
Oh, I know who you're talking about.
(00:54:03):
Yeah.
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I don't know his name.
(00:54:07):
Okay, we should move on.
(00:54:09):
All right, is it your turn to ask a question?
(00:54:11):
I think so.
(00:54:11):
I think it's my turn to ask a question.
(00:54:13):
All right, I say we ask one more question and we call it because we're... One more each?
(00:54:19):
Yeah, one more each.
(00:54:19):
Okay, I like that idea.
(00:54:21):
I'm getting very hungry, so that's perfect.
(00:54:31):
Tell me everything that you can remember that made you fall in love with me.
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Oh, goodness.
(00:54:38):
All right.
(00:54:39):
How long do you have?
(00:54:41):
All right.
(00:54:44):
So I'm going to get mushy.
(00:54:52):
I pretty much have to get mushy to answer this question.
(00:54:55):
I think that's fine.
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As long as you're fine with it.
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I'm fine with it.
(00:54:59):
Good.
(00:54:59):
You're cooking.
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You're cooking.
(00:55:07):
all because the cinnamon rolls yeah the cinnamon rolls did it the cinnamon rolls I
(00:55:13):
brought him cinnamon rolls on Christmas day yeah I drove all the way to this house
(00:55:18):
to bring him cinnamon rolls yeah all the effort you put in like driving cinnamon
(00:55:25):
rolls out to make Christmas day like the way you make me feel when I'm with you
(00:55:36):
The sex.
(00:55:37):
Oh, my God.
(00:55:39):
Like, still mind-blowing.
(00:55:41):
Still mind-blowing.
(00:55:43):
Holy fucking shit.
(00:55:47):
I mean, it's just everything.
(00:55:48):
Like, you remembering little things for me.
(00:55:55):
You going out of your way to just...
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like,
(00:56:03):
little things,
(00:56:04):
like,
(00:56:05):
you bring me lunch when I forget,
(00:56:07):
like,
(00:56:09):
you give me space when I need it,
(00:56:14):
you make me happy when I'm sad,
(00:56:16):
like,
(00:56:17):
there's really never a time that I don't want to talk to you or tell you,
(00:56:24):
like,
(00:56:25):
about everything or just exist with you,
(00:56:30):
like,
(00:56:33):
As long as I'm around you, I'm cool.
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It doesn't really matter what we're doing.
(00:56:40):
Yeah.
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I love you so fucking much.
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I love you so fucking much.
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You're right.
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I feel very lucky to be yours.
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I feel very lucky to be yours.
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Okay.
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Last question.
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It's yours.
(00:56:57):
Yeah.
(00:56:58):
I feel like it has to be a really good question now.
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What's your favorite color?
(00:57:07):
I'm just kidding.
(00:57:08):
I was like, that's obvious to literally everyone.
(00:57:10):
Yeah, that's true.
(00:57:13):
Okay.
(00:57:14):
It's pink, by the way.
(00:57:16):
Yeah, and like if you don't know, it's pink.
(00:57:18):
I'm literally wearing pink heart glasses right now.
(00:57:21):
Yes.
(00:57:22):
And I have hot pink nails and a pink watch and pink toes and a pink water bottle
(00:57:27):
and a pink crochet hook and a pink charging cord.
(00:57:31):
Yes, there's lots of pink.
(00:57:34):
You should feel bad for me because there's two little girls that live here as well.
(00:57:39):
But one of them loves turquoise, which is fucking fantastic.
(00:57:44):
Correct.
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And pink.
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And pink.
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Because there's tons of pink everywhere.
(00:57:48):
There is tons of pink.
(00:57:48):
She also really likes purple.
(00:57:50):
I'm super outnumbered, guys.
(00:57:52):
Yeah.
(00:57:53):
Lou's favorite color changes on the rig.
(00:57:58):
We thought the color question wasn't going to be good.
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No, ask me a real question.
(00:58:04):
Okay.
(00:58:07):
When did you realize you loved me?
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When did I realize I loved you?
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Correct.
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Oh, no.
(00:58:17):
Let's see.
(00:58:18):
Good question.
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Ooh.
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I think...
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I know the moment, I just don't know when it was.
(00:58:45):
When was the moment?
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So I was driving, and I was listening to The Loneliest by Måneskin.
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Okay.
(00:59:04):
And I just started crying because I was like,
(00:59:09):
This can't be him.
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I can't.
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No, this can't happen.
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I can't.
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I don't want that to be him.
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I didn't want to have to let you go.
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But eventually I was going to have to let you go.
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Yeah, because you were married.
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I was married and you did not know.
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You did not know until I moved in with you because I'm kind of a fucked up person sometimes.
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Yeah.
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But...
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I love you.
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And I love where we're at.
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Me too.
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Good.
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But, yeah, that was that.
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And then Christmas came.
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And I don't know what it was,
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but you being alone,
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not going anywhere,
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not having any meal,
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like,
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that really bothered me.
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I noticed that when you showed up.
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When I didn't tell you.
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And I also didn't tell you that I'd been making a blanket for you for, like, three months, I think.
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Yeah.
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I planned for that.
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Like, sometimes my brain works.
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Yeah, it's just crazy that you were making a blanket for three months for your booty call.
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Yeah, that was when I realized I was like, oh.
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This is so much more.
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And I think the feelings all started to kick in after, like, when we went to go pick up your motorcycle.
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That pretty much was my moment.
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Yeah?
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Yeah, three hours with you, just talking and listening to music.
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And just, it was a beautiful day.
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And then I got my motorcycle and rode it like two and a half hours home.
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And then you still took the time to,
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even though you needed to go get Iz,
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you still took the time to give me my payment,
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which required putting things in bags.
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Yeah.
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And you still took the time to do that.
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Yeah, of course.
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And I think we might have shared part of a joint.
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Oh, for sure.
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We always did.
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We did.
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We really... I don't think people realize how much of a pothead I am.
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Oh my goodness.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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It is... It is intense.
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Yeah, not as intense as our sex, though.
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No, not nearly there.
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Okay, it's time for me to go eat, and I'm so excited because we're having sandwiches.
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I'm weird, and I love sandwiches, and that is great, because you love sandwiches, which is also great.
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I do.
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Grandma's texting me.
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Okay, that has been another episode of the Chaos, or the Curiosity Chronicles.
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Jesus, there's too many Chronicles.
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I'm going to have to get that shit together.
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Thank you, babe, for joining us.
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It was so much fun.
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I always love talking with you.
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Of course, baby.
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Thank you for having me.
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You're welcome.
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And we, and I, will talk to you next time.
