Hello beautiful people!!
Before I go into my rant for today about Peloton (LOL), let me quickly tell you what the pod today is about ✨🦄✨(I discovered emojis in here and I’m excited)
Sadly, I recorded the original pod in central park 🌸🌸🌸 but the sound quality was SO BAD. I am not a fan of deleting anything I make but I HAD TO. SO DM me if you want the original hehe (honestly maybe I should post as a bonus pod)
* Attempting to be creative about my pod recording locations (fail)
* Recent virtual event experience and feeling like there’s always more healing work to do 😫😫😫
* Oat milk at Starbucks
* Being home for the week
* Why I get overwhelmed with the pop psych movement
OK. Onto the newsletter. So this week my overthinking has been confronted with a new tactic, the Peloton.
This is not sponsored and honestly I never thought I would be here. This reminds me of the times in my life where I used to judge expensive gyms. I would take a tour of the local Equinox and mentally judge people who were spending upwards of 200 dollars on a monthly membership. But the more and more I grow up (ha), the more I keep doing things my younger self would be appalled at.
Things my 17 year old self would not approve of that I now do (ongoing list):
* Spend 300 dollars on a sweater because it embodies the self I want to be (bonus points if you can guess the sweater)
* Routinely going to coffee shops to spend 6-7 dollars on a coffee because it “feels good and fun”
* Buying oat milk when regular milk is half the price
* Getting up-charged for dietary things in general
* Going to expensive grocery stores because of the aesthetic and the facade of feeling healthy
* Spending money on dance classes that have no direct relationship to the productivity of my life (said productivity now also debatable what even is productivity)
* Going to expensive AF workout classes just feel attractive and cool and because of the nice shampoo products rip (and then buying smoothies after)
* Going out and not being the annoying friend who calculates the price of my meal vs others because it’s not worth the energy (yes everyone hated me when I was 17)
* Going out in general and spending way too much money on food just cause
* Buying avocados
Anyways, you get the point. Who have I become????
But. I told you guys. I am JUST DOING THE TRIAL.
My point is that little things like going on walks, doing yoga and now (lol) doing these peloton workouts have been fundamental to my mental health. Who knew?? My middle school gym teacher was right (I just feel like no one should ever be forced to workout in front of people watching but WTV hopefully they fixed that.. I’ll just be here with my trauma)
The day will go like this.
Wake up: UGH, anxiety, so many things to do, UGH
Next hour: Coffee, for a second maybe be grateful for said coffee, thn remember problems and spiral
I used to just take this at face value. Like, yep, this is me, this is my mood today for, idk, basically all of quarantine and before, I would just base my mood off whatever was happening that day.
BUT NOW. NOW. Things are different. Lol. This should really be a commercial for peloton.
Now I can….
Wake up: Hate everything
Next hour: Coffee
And then (up-level) go outside and walk until my thoughts loosen up a bit. Or vice versa with the peloton. Or both.
And yeah this isn’t revolutionary by any means but SOMETIMES WE OVERCOMPLICATE OUR PROBLEMS. We create this whole entire venn diagram, flow chart, whatever idk and that’s great but sometimes I somehow find the solution or at least some sort of peace when I overwork my body.
Ok. This section used to be called Media Consumption. BUT I have changed it. Because I am starting to view media as a “healthy” distraction but it can also be other things like…. going to Lululemon for no reason or… idk what else do you guys do for fun???
My therapist calls this healthy distraction. The moments in between “dealing with your emotion” or whatever lol. And I agree. I tried for a while to be really by the books and avoid places where I was clearly running away but I honestly find consuming meaningless content as the exact thing I need to be doing so. Sue me.
* I discovered Cody Ko. I know, IDK why I’m super late to this YouTube game and IDK if this is embarrassing. He’s just funny and the definition of just having fun with life. So it makes me happy.
BUT. Thn I found his girlfriend. And so I binged all her vlogs which include them both cause guys I swear this is the best couple of the internet.
* This nature YouTube video that I watched in the bath and cried. I MISS NATURE.
And that’s about it. I’ve also been baking.
* Baking brownies
* Baking gluten free brownies
Apparently learning new things is a great way to alleviate human suffering or whatever. How fun!
* Sunday with Love Peloton rides as I’ve already blasted about but I love Ally Love (I already knew her) but she has these inspirational rides about life and motivation that also made me cry.
* Going to Anthropologie for spring vibes (cute). Bought more pastel bowls!
And that’s about it folks. BTW. Sneak peek to the pod. The oat milk latte was okay and my mom didn’t freak out about the tattoo.
Til next week 💖 More realizations, more living, more thoughts. 💖
