I am writing on purpose again. I didn’t think I would be writing on purpose again so soon. I found myself outside opening my gate to begin my yard’s maintenance with the aggressive barking of my neighbor’s dogs again. I feel the anger well up in me and a whisper inside that tells me “you are set aside.” I am angry because I have already addressed this issue with the dogs. No one I talk to sees it as an issue. They say dogs bark but my yard is not theirs and by as much time has passed they should be acclimated to the fact that I lived here first. Peace and quiet predates them.
“You are set aside.” What does that mean? What am I to do with that whispering. There is no immediate power in that saying that will quell these animals to stop disturbing my thoughts or correcting the owners of these wayward animals. I grew up with dogs around me. For the most part, they do not just bark. They learn their zone of protection and shut up. Responsible owners know a barking dog is usually not a protector.
Know you have been set aside feels illogical. Another reason why feelings and logic have to learn to be on good terms. I have to walk in my purpose and me walking over to my neighbors house every time their dogs bark at me for being outside in my yard is not purposeful. That is the part that most angers me. My main assignment being a peaceful protagonist in my own story. Not a pushover, steady in my reproach. I can’t move in anger because my anxiety has been heightened. I have to calm down and feel safe again.
It is imperative to understand that all people who I encounter think like me. They do not have the purpose that I have. The automatic knowing and reading of situations that allow me to ignore most negative social interactions. I do not take solace in that because it requires quite a bit of mental stamina.
Being set aside for your purpose in life is taxing. It makes you angry when you finally figure out what it means to be “set aside” in reference to your purpose. You are not meant to walk in every storm to quell it, just in the ones that require you to walk in your purpose. Telling rowdy dogs to shut-up is an everybody job and I am too special for that.
Mookie Toujour💜
