Welcome, you are listening to Every Song. A series where I play songs I’ve written throughout the years and share the stories behind them.
The first song for today is titled This is Why, written on the 10th of April 2009. It’s about being friendzoned - arguing with oneself about admitting or denying feelings for someone who is not going to reciprocate those feelings.
090410 This Is Why
I’m constantly over analysing every single word you say to meWhen it always turns out to beNothing important at allI’m daydreaming every chance I getAnd I dress up, I put my best jeans onEven when I’m just on the phone with youBut some other girl’s got you on her queueCause she’s pretty as pretty can beBut you’ll always have a home in me
This is why I think I’m in loveWhen you laughEverything that glitters is goldSo, I won’t have the heart to let goThis is why I think I’m in loveIt’s your voiceIt’s a kind of beautiful noiseSo, I don’t really have a choiceI’m in love with the boy
It’s complicatedI still have to wait‘Til I’m eighteen and fully healedBut I ain’t complaining, I’m still thinkingAnd the thought of being with you is getting me so excitedBut now I’m doubtfulOoh boy what’s the use of trying if I’m not even into you anymoreYou changed my mind completelyWhen you came around to see me just to cry about herCause she’s pretty as pretty could beAnd you’ve moved out of your home in me
This is why I’m so not in loveWhen you talkEverything is dragged out and longSo, I won’t have the time to listenThis is why I’m so not in loveIt’s your attitudeThe world don’t revolve around youSo, I will keep collected and coolThere’s no lovin’ - there’s no truth
So, I’ll keep moving on - I’ll keep rolling - on to the next flightI will be alrightBecause I know that you will be happyWith or without me hitting the concreteDo you want to take this to the next levelAnswer me babyIt’s now or never
The second song is one I wrote as a songwriting exercise. The challenge I set for myself was to write something inspired by or in the style of Colbie Caillat. This song, particularly rhythmically in the vocal melodies and guitar chord progression, was inspired by Colbie Caillat’s Realize.
My friends and I listened to a lot of Colbie Caillat in that time of our life, especially when we’d spend a lot of our summers at beaches and baches. Beach-babe pop, and chill surf-pop songs were the soundtracks to our hang-outs and holidays. I’m takling Jack Johnson, Corinne Bailey Ray, Ben Harper. That vibe.
This is Can’t Wait to Fall in Love, written some time in May of 2008.
080500 Can't Wait to Fall in Love
All the thoughts in my headThat I just can’t bring myself to sayThere might be something hereFeelings I can’t bear to feelThey can keep trying to push me awayBut baby I’m here to stayBecause no matter whatWe’ll pull throughI just can’t keep away from you
You must not matter they tell meBut I just keep coming backBut you must matter enough for meTo be singing about
Maybe if I just give this a tryIt might evenEnd up being something worth my timeI just can’t wait to fall in love with youMaybe if I just tell you what I’m thinkingThis might even end up being the real thingI just can’t wait to fall in love with you
Why would I be ashamedOf having someone who feels this way about meCause babyBeing with you is better than being aloneSo, don’t worry I won’tLet you becomeJust another strangerIn just another one of my songs
Wellp, here’s another one that falls under the category of ‘Songs about X’. I don’t have quite as much to say about it because when I was writing it, I was just trying to get as many thoughts as I can out of me and onto paper.
Here is A Hell of a Lot to Say, written on the 8th of September 2007.
070908 A Hell of a Lot to Say
I’m smiling like crazyFeeling so much betterWithout you in my lifeI’m dancing on table tops butI’m messing up butI can breatheAnd it feels so sweetThough sometimes it feels like I’m living a lieThe things that don’t matterMean so much more to me nowI’m so incomplete nowCause when I hid you awayThis game ain’t been the same
You’re moving onI’m left behindYou know I’ve gotta keep strong baby I’mStill trying toGet over youEven though I’m the one who walked awayI’ve still got a hell of a lot to say
Now you’re tryna get some actionTryna make me jealous, whyOh that’s right, you’re on reboundWhat are you tryna rub up in my faeShe’s just a safety netI really couldn’t care lessThough sometimes it feels like I’m living a lieCause I know I still want youWant you back in my lifeRemember that timeThat I actually agreed to be your wife
Thank you for listening to episode 19 of Every Song. Until next time.
