Every Song 42
Welcome, you are listening to Every Song. A series where I play songs I’ve written throughout the years and share the stories behind them.
Oh my God. I’ve been feeling incredibly run down lately. I’ve gotten sick again. This time between the move plus I got my period at the same bloody time and it’s been rough. I feel like I’ve been sick a lot this year and I only usually get sick like once a year before the Covids must have done a number on me. I think my body, being bogged down with stress, with the move and work and all that, is just like what the f**k is going on and my immune system has just given up on me lately.
So, I’m keeping this episode short and sweet again today with one song only.
This is a song I wrote on the 21st of October 2010. Around this time, in the cusp of the first and second decade of the millennia, there was this strange phenomenon that happened between my girls and I: we were—I think about 3 or 4 of us—randomly dating Mormon dudes. All unrelated; all don’t have any connection each other; from different churches; from different cities (well - as far as we know they don’t knoow each other).
I wrote this song I’m about to play for you all about the Mormon guy I randomly dated in this era. I keep saying random because everytime I look back at it I just wonder what the hell going on? What the hell was in the water at that time. Did all the hot Mormon guys get told by their churches to go out there to date a bunch of unsuspecting Catholic girls in a mission to convert us?
It was a strange experience, to say the least, because from the data that I’ve gathered from my girls that were also dating these random hot Mormon dudes, there was this common issue —and this was not a surprise at all; this is a very common thing that they do and it still happens now— where these guys would all profess their love and infatuation with us, get us all hooked, and then pull away as much as they can and as fast as they can. Classic lovebombing. But back in those days, the term lovebombing wasn’t a thing. I’m glad we have a label for it now actually. Anyway, it was almost like a bait - or a free trial where they say, “Oh, you want this kind of relationship? You’re going to need to convert.” And straight up, f**k that.
This is called A Shot in the Dark.
101021 A Shot in The Dark
It’s all or nothing with himBut I’m choosing nothing to begin withCause I hear nothing lasts foreverI cannot breathe without himI would rather pretendBut it’s up to him so for now we’re just friends
We’re falling oh so fastLetting go of the pastIt’s ecstasy but will this even last?
I’m feeling the adrenaline rushBurning the thickest of my walls to dustBut he won’t let me love himWith all my heartHe won’t let me love himIt’s a shot in the dark
I’m tamed but I’m still wantingEverything from him, we startedOut like we were supposed toA couple of kidsWho don’t know where we’re heading toUp and down and left and right andAll the way back to the corner of my mindThat he occupiedTwenty four seven, three six five
So, when he leaves this townTo spread good news aroundI’ll be waitingCause I know soon he’ll be homeward bound
Thank you for listening to episode 42 of Every Song. Until next time.
